Exhausted Confessions

When the pandemic hit I really put myself out there. Tried to help. But my health has faded. I tried my best. I think I’m done. I don’t think my body has much left. I just can’t fight forever.

#tired   #disease   #exhausted  

It makes me even more depressed to see my friends soar while im crashing down. I know i have to motivate myself but lately it’s just been so sht, seeing results then triggering a relapse. I have a time limit to make everything okay again and pushing myself to achieve everything all at once results in me crashing back down harder. I’ve given up but i still keep trying the same toxic methods because i have no other option. At the end of this, i know i’ll get there somehow but it’s the matter of whether i can still breathe after i push myself to my limits. I’d rather be in pain to get there quickly than to really fix myself. There’s no other way. Unless i fail myself and fail others again like 2 years ago.

#exhausted  

There is so much on my mind right now I don't know where or how to start.
I am exhausted I am tired I am lonely I am stressed I am crowded.
I don't want to be with people, but I do not want to be alone either.
University is killing me right now one test after another and another. Work is horrible, I am being bullied and threatened.
I just want it all to stop.

I just want to sleep.

#tired   #exhausted   #insane   #stress   #whattodo   #help