Gore Confessions

I'm a 19 year old girl who has developed an really weird desire to remove her legs. I just feel disgusting walking around with those stumps of flesh. I want to feel perfect, so a few years back I tried to cut my thigh open with a hacksaw but it went really badly and I had to go to hospital. I've changed my methods now, and I inject faeces and porridge oats into a flesh wound in my leg so it will go gangrenous so it can be cut off. Then I can be perfect. I feel ill, am I ok?

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