Samaritan Confessions

I used to try to save lives in different ways. I did save some. But the ones I lost haunt me. Oh I know I did my best. I’ve had people crying & thanking me. I know I made a difference in the world.
But I failed the 4 people I love with all I am. I couldn’t help it. I have a disease. I fought the disease. But it beat me. Oh I know now all the things I did wrong. But I couldn’t see it then.
It’s so funny. Some children think I’m the greatest man in the world that’s not their dad. But I have to struggle to be that. I’m so sick. It’s hard willing myself to endure the pain everyday. I keep saying my loved ones need me.
I hate myself. I hate everything about me. I can see no good in me. But I know others need me. That will just have to be enough.

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