Focus Confessions

I am totally and irreversibly in love with my biology teacher. He's about 40 years old and such a sweetheart. In his class, I am not able to focus or concentrate on anything, my grades are therefore very unsatisfying.
Now I hope that he will offer me extra private lessons, private tuition.
Why I think this is such a problem? I am a guy.

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I wonder.
I sometimes wonder if I make mistakes. Cause and affect.
I think maybe I need to stop talking to people.
Oh it was fun at times. It had purposes.
Sometimes you can help someone without it being obvious. You present yourself one way. Push buttons. Hope for a response. So long as the person doesn’t catch on; and the goal is to help innocents. Help do good. Be fair, but serve Gods will. Then I think it’s OK.
Maybe it’s time for me to focus on just my loved ones who still need me, and stay as healthy as I can for them. Let the rest of the world do it’s best. I only have so much energy left.
I’ll have to dwell on that.

#tired   #shifting   #focus   #service   #love   #christian   #happiness