Frustration Confessions

I want to wish penile cancer on the men who don't find me attractive.

#frustration   #boredom   #lust   #wrath  

I study and have to do assignments and I try to fit in some exercise but lately all I do is walking and vibration platform workout with weights and resistance cords. I really try to eat low fat however I notice weight gain. some is from that we have gone back to full cream milk over low fat milk and there is a lot of dieticians turning back to butter and full cream. sometimes I will eat peanut butter and hazelnut choc spreads but I know I should not have these. I avoid jams and sweet things a lot.

I find I get cravings for chocolate and I snack too much on choc wafers and cheese and crackers, biscuits and I have become turned off flavored yogurts and I prefer low fat choc mouse or plain low fat yogurt mixed with lime juice and I prefer chili sauce over other dip sauces as it clears my sinuses.

I rarely eat fattening foods like cake or pastries or ice-cream (they are special treats for me).

dessert for me is like 1 ginger nut biscuit with a cup of tea,

I really enjoy vegitables as themselves or in soups and salads, I love salmon and tuna, and beans and I eat lean meats and small portions only.

I just want to know where I am getting this access fat?

I want to exercise more where my neighbors can't see me exercising. I want to lose weight so bad. I have considered starving myself. cutting half of everything I eat. I drink heaps of water often

I need to find exercise that will work, is fun and not over burdensome!

I am sick of gaining fucking weight. I am sick of being ugly and slobbish and I hate looking at myself in the mirror seeing all the fat.

my laziness is frustrating. I need to move more and I have to study and complete my work. If I don't start looking good and losing weight and feeling good soon I just don't know what I will do.

#fat   #weight   #loss   #frustration  

I want to fight my dad and win so that I can embarrass him in front of the rest of my family and expose him for the little bitch that he is.

#anger   #frustration  

I have gotten to a point where I just can't stand my husband anymore. Forcing it to work has driven me to act stupidly finding what I need elsewhere but that solves nothing creating more and more issues. Yes I am aware that I a giant piece of shit for this.
We got married at 21 after I got pregnant. I am now almost 31 and idk if i have changed or the circumstances possibly both but fuck we are fighting more that getting along. No matter how each of us tries to communicate, one this the otger is attacking and it becomes one nasty fight or another. Im tired. Tired of all this shit. And no when you a have a kid with autsim in all the correct programs you dont have the option to pick and just leave
At this stage the only way out seems to be death but who can afford to die these days.
Anyways there is my confession.

I got laser eye surgery today and my mom lost my numbing drops within a few hours after coming out of the doctor's office. REALLY, MOM?!

#annoyance   #surgery   #frustration  

I like this guy and he likes me back but he's a big pussy. Can't even approach me and I always have to make the first move.

#love   #frustration