Again Confessions

I started sleeping with a guy I’ve always wanted to fuck last year even though he had/has a girlfriend.
I’ve always thought he was hot but have never been single when he’s been around (meaning he was in jail for the short time I was free between relationships since I met him about 8-9 years ago).
It was supposed to be one “encounter” … We had about 5 days while she was away and that was supposed to be it, however every time she’s been away since then he’s contacted me, the last couple of times even coming to me at my house (we lived just over an hour apart and I’d always gone to him). I’ve not once tried to reach out or been the one to instigate further hookups, it was always him, but not once was I going to turn him down. The connection is AMAZING, honestly I’ve had some of THE BEST sex of my life with this guy.
The weird thing is, even though I know his partner I just don’t feel guilty, I don’t give a fuck, I would and probably will continue to fuck this boy every time she is out of town.

#ifuckedyourboyfriend   #illdoitagain   #mostselfishthingihaveeverdone   #noguilt  

sometimes I feel like killing myself, I think about it. then accept I'm too much of a pussy to actually die and stop existing and that I need to be here for a reason but I haven't found a reason or a purpose to live for or die for somethings always changing my mind. other days I feel like doing everything and greeting everyone and being someone in life I want to be a medic, a navy seal, a firefighter, a marine, a surgeon, a doctor, a gastrointestinologist , a physical therapist a masseuse, a gardener, a teacher, a painter,, a farmer, a swimmer, an inventor, a nutritionist, a famous DJ, a world renown producer, a fashion designer, many things, , . then suddenly I feel like I don't deserve life and I'm a waste of life and I want to take a bunch of anesthetic numbing medication and something that'll kill me fast and painlessly and go quietly but then If I do there's a chance ill shit my pants and vomit and ill die dizzy and uncomfortable and smelly, cause id do it with a gun but that'd be too messy and I don't want a gross hole in my skull and brain matter all over the place, and plus I don't have a place to kill myself and I don't wanna do it at someone's house, that's just disrespectful. id slit my wrists but that would hurt, and If I did coke my heart would be pumping and id be alive and dying simultaneously. my mind is everywhere, I just want a simple mind. :( and a normal life goddamnit, I wanna get laid, I wanna kiss a girl, I wanna love, I wanna stop watching porn so much, I wish I was more social, I'm skeptical about believing in god, sometimes i do then i don't then i feel guilty because then i go running back and then rejecting it and afraid god will reject me for always being a believer and a non believer

#here   #we   #go   #again   #social   #god  

One night I went to my friends house (he's a boy) and there was a couple of other guys there too.
We hung out and one of the the guys started to touch my boob, I looked at them and then the other one started rubbing my vagina. It felt so good, after that they asked me to give them a blowjob and I refused, they accused me of calling me a chicken so I yanked their trousers down and gave them a blowjob, we do it regularly now.

I don't see the point of people waiting to punish someone long after the fact. so if prince charles wants to punish megs he ought to do it now while its fresh in her past and not too far gone in the past to be remembered. I think charles should worry about his own short comings and mistakes rather then abusing others with his lethal weak power. It never serves to be some king kong hitler too late. He better not try to teach me any lessons either. I am so sick of that fucking family and their shit. They are the ones who need to learn lessons. Megs does need a good sholve down for all the evil she has done to white people. She and harry are just bad news all round and kate and will no better. I think charles will be a mean king on whites but most of his kingdom will have gone by the time he is king. They pushed a lot of good people out.

#chuck   #to   #turn   #exicutioner   #again  

I love to vibrate my pussy while my girlfriend rides the strap on my knee.

#imlustingagain   #lesbianlust  

My friends slumber party was with no place to sleep. I ended up in her father's bed. We had sex. Now everytime I visit, i want a repeat, but it is not possible.

#impossible   #again   #sex