Holy Confessions

My girlfriend's father thinks I am going to church every Sunday. That was a necessary lie I had to tell for him to trust and like me. He is a very religious man and I thought the best thing to do is tell him I am too.But I am not. Not at all. My girlfriend doesn't know either! I am sure she wouldn't approve lying to her father about something like that. So I tell her as well that I am at church at Sundays. We live 50 miles away from each other so that's not a problem.In reality, I'll lie in bed, just turn off my phone and watch some stupid videos online.I really enjoy this time because I do not have to think about anything or anyone. I thought about telling them that I am going to the evening mass on Thursdays as wel just to have a few hours for myself. Maybe masturbate, maybe watch a movie, maybe take a nice bath. That's my own holy time. I love my girlfriend but I like my alone time as well. 

#holy   #church   #lie   #mass   #confession   #fatherinlaw   #girlfriend   #oops  

I endlessly lie online. Sometimes I tell the truth. Mostly I lie for fun. But it occurred to me. Some people on the net really believe crazy stuff. So I feel very bad about some I’ve left. I pray I never harmed anyone trying to be funny. Seemed harmless. Then I thought maybe it would help people realize they were believing craziness. But then it occurred to me. Nearly everyone believes in God. Christian; Muslim; Jew, Mormon. So most humans believe in an all powerful being who created everything. But no one has ever seen Him. We all take it on faith. But I have heard the Holy Spirit inside me. So God must be real. But it makes it harder to dismiss them when I consider we are seem to be biologically programmed to believe in things no one around us can prove they’ve ever seen.

#heaven   #god   #holy   #spirit   #ghost  

I'll try," she said as he walked away.
"Try not to lose you."
Two vibrant hearts could change.
Nothing tears the being more than deception,
unmasked fear.
"I'll be here waiting" tested and secure.

Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall.

"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."

Nothing will last in this life,
our time is spent constructing,
now you're perfecting a world... meant to sin.
Constrict your hands around me,
squeeze till I cannot breathe,
this air tastes dead inside me,
contribute to our plague.
Break all your promises,
tear down this steadfast wall,
restraints are useless here,
tasting salvation's near.

Nothing hurts my world,
just affects the ones around me
When sin's deep in my blood,
you'll be the one to fall.

"I wish I could be the one,
the one who won't care at all
But being the one on the stand,
I know the way to go, no one's guiding me.
When time soaked with blood turns its back,
I know it's hard to fall.
Confided in me was your heart
I know it's hurting you, but it's killing me."

#cheating