We can consciously end our life almost anytime we choose. This ability is an endowment, like laughing and blushing, given to no other animal... in any given moment, by not exercising the option of suicide, we are choosing to live.

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McWilliams was diagnosed with non-Hodgkin's lymphoma in 1996. He was released from custody on $250000 bail and with the "condition that he not use marijuana. McWilliams later repudiated the movement claiming to be the sole author of the books.