Every now and then you think about your life, what you would like to be, you start at Number 1 and you go down to 100. And down at the bottom, 100, was - Stage. Go figure. That would be the last thing. It terrified me, man. But I had to do it.

In 1985 he released the more commercially viable Just a Million Dreams which nevertheless proved unsuccessful. But we couldn't call it Life. With Bermowitz finally settling on Alan Suicide as a working name they began to play music venues.

He is also an establiAlan Vegad sculptor.