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I think we are taking in some asians who have no place to live during covid and I feel bad I can't offer them a better warm bed then a futon, if the house was clean and renovated they could stay in the big bed and they could sit at the table in a nice farm kitchen.
I have tried to reason with people about Covid. They laughed and argued with me. Then they got sick. Hospitals. Permanent disability & death in one family.
So they wore masks. I slowly got them vaccinated. I was told not to take it. I stepped up early. Lied. Took it anyways. They watched I didn’t die & most took it.
Delta kicked some of their butts. I warned the non vax. I warned that the vax could still carry to others. I masked up. They laughed. Then some got sick. It’s spread. Two extended deaths. Not sure who gave it to who. Now they are very somber.
I’ve had 3. I may go lie & get a 4th. It seems stupid. But I’m having to prove this stuff is safe. They keep catching on “after” the fact. Their tears are sad. Their guilt is sad. The ones who seem permanently damaged is sad.
I’m not mocking them. I’m sad for them. Sorry for their loss. Sorry that fear mongers are making money by scaring people into not vaxxing. I’m stupid. I can’t find a way to reach a wonderful person. That crushes my soul. If they get it & die I’ll be destroyed. I’m so sad.
Did I have Covid? People in my house got sick. Claimed didn’t have fever so not Covid. I had just started blood pressure meds. So slept in bed for days. Due to disease & dose too high.
One of them had been to beach & party I think so I feared they had it.
I lock self in room. Per in jug. Only eat crackers & water for days which gave me upset stomach.
Well they got sicker & sicker. I got chest pain & hard breath & dry cough. I had spent 2 nights in rain shoveling. I think I gave self mild pneumonia which is common in my disease. I’ve had before. I get pneumonia shots so probably never got bad.
My Covid test came back and said I did not have Covid. By the time it came back I was doing great. My family claims I had it. But if I get it with my disease I’ll probably die.
The others got migraines; lost smell & taste; were sick much longer & worse than me. Three tested positive. One never got it.
I think I didn’t get. I think hiding & wearing mask in house saved me.
I know a woman. Her & her husband mocked the masks & vaccines. He would claim he knew it wasn’t dangerous. A lot of their family listened to them. He just buried his dad. They have family in the hospital. They just left for a viewing of another relative.
He fast tracked his first masks. Finally. She’s worried because her no vax daughter just left for Florida with her young son. Because of this ladies husband; none of them wear masks or are vax. They think this is just a cold. She said when they get back she’s going to try to talk them into a vaccine. And she bought them some masks. She’s afraid they won’t wear them if they survive Florida’s beaches for two weeks.
When my fiance died, I was 26. We had been best friends since age 10 and did not start dating until I was 20 and in college. Considering how abusive my stepfather and mothers marriage was, my fiance always consistently made me feel safe and was very much a shelter in the storm. Reliable and protective in a way that I never had to worry about anything. I was very naieve to how much my fiance was worth or that they were one of the top ten wealthiest families in America. I've met people with money but never anyone so generous towards me: emotionally, physically, financially, sexually. Would go to pay a bill for a class or utility bill and it had already been paid. It is rare to meet anyone who 'sees your need, and meets your need,' without even having to ask. Why ask anyone to buy you yellow roses? If the intention or initative is not there to show someone love and kindness what is the point. People should go the distance to show you love, and you should go the distance for others. It creates a mutual reciprocity, a flow.
My fiances death, was interpreted by my body as hearthreaking pneumonia over the loss of my 16 year companion. For 5 years in a row I continued to catch pneumonia on the day that my fiance died like clockwork. Until I found out from working with a group of monks to heal in the mountains of San Francisco I had to face a deep grief known as survivors guilt for still being alive. After that, I never caught pneumonia again.
Fast forward to the pandemic and a man from mainland China comes off the plane directly into our spa in Jan of 2020, the owner who never gets sick, like once every 4 years went down like the titanic. Then I went down for two weeks but recovered quickly. In the process the blood banks were having shortages and offered to pay me $100 a pint because a lab out of State wanted to use my juice for making serum for cancer and transplant patients. Without blood donations or the serum neither can get treatment or transplants and die. The irony, the loss of a great love and all those years of being sick in fact made me immune to CoVid. Who knew God had a plan under all the pain.
I buried a family member this week, and have been feeling under the weather. Was around too many people maskless, and I am exempt via a Doctor for vaccines due to creating serum. My left lung hurts and I am coughing with a mild fever, I wonder if this is it? I have been here on prison planet existing without the love of my life and best friend for 22 years and I am tired of being here.
Beyond family, I have learned you can expend a lot of energy caring and supporting people. But no one sincerely cares about your emotional, physical or financial well being- people are raised to be too selfish and self serving. Only concerned about what they can get from you or what you can do for them. I think about all the people my family and I have helped along the way for years and not one of them has cared to check in on me or my family to see if we are alright during the pandemic without me first making the effort. What a waste of kindness, and effort when everyone is in survival mode. The worst is nothing your extremely wealthy friends see your suffering and instead of helping you just sit back and watch you continue to struggle. It is one of the greatest disappointments when it is within their power to empower you.
Sometimes when I go to sleep at night and close my eyes, I secretly hope not to wake up. To leave the cruelty of this world behind and wake up in the dreamy arms of the one person in my entire life that not only loved me in words, but in deed consistently. No lip service. No games. No drama. No flakiness. I dated a lot of people afterwards, many of which know nothing about loving others in a healthy way. So much so I just gave up hope of ever finding or meeting anyone, because peoples issues and drama just burned me out. Then they perceive you as either; not rich enough, skinny enough, wearing the right superficial labels or driving the right car, or your unwillingness to sponsor their gold diggeritis. It's just ridiculous and compounded with the fact peoples medical addicitions come in two, no thanks. After working in nursing, you learn so many people are just toxic and abusive. Humanity needs to change to a more loving and compassionate mindset, instead of this fear based survival exploitation mode. I was backstabbed for the last time by 2nd fiance, and by my own sister and mother last summer that I was trying to help and shall pass on being close to anyone. I trust no one anymore, as it is better to be alone than settle for less than you are worth. 90% of the planet are assholes, and the ones you think aren't are. I refuse to settle for this planets version of shit love and lust because they are ignorant to what true love and caring for another genuinely means. Grateful I did not have to spend my life searching for love or sleep around to find it when God blessed me with wonderful you, my true friend, my ally, my angel in this life and beyond.
I have survived long enough without you, I know you are proud of me, but I am ready to return home to you forever because it has been a very lonely, beautiful and disappointing journey far from the waking joyful dreams of our southern mansion surrounded by trees filled with spanish moss, sharing lemonade on a hot sunny day, skinny dippin on the beach and dancing under the southern stars with the laughter of our unborn children in the air. The world has forgotten that love, shared with those you love is everything, never take it for granted and stop wasting time listening to your own excuses that hold you back from love. Tell the people you love that you love them, that they matter, that you are grateful for their existence. See their need and meet the need without having to be asked. Make every sunrise and sunset count.
Forever Grateful for my fiance Lee being my love light in the darkness of this world and allowing me to carry that love with me like a Tesla solar backpack of love to complete the work I must do. And I have done a lot. Sweet dreams my love. Hope to see you soon if any of these variants will do their job, so to expedite matters I refused any medicine or medical treatment during the pandemic.
March 3rd, the two year countdown begins...your interstellar wife is finally coming home.
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Someone tried to walk right beside we without having been vax. And with no mask. The duo started mocking people who get the vax. So I started politely mocking people too afraid of the vax. They said the whole world should have waited 3-5 yrs for proper testing. So I said yeah millions of people having took it isn’t enough proof for morons. They’d rather the whole world die while they follow a few hundred test subjects. Those millions who are fine aren’t enough.
I told them I know someone who was like them. She wouldn’t vax or mask. So she gave it to her family. Now one is on life support and a few are dead. She needed a hospital but they gave her emergency new treatments & she barely lived. But now she’s always tired. Can’t taste or smell. Coughs a lot. But on the plus side she did get the vax & now wears a mask.
I told them that on the plus side. All these people dying who won’t vax are creating job opportunities. I know two people who had bad jobs. They listened to me. And because they would vax I work long hrs they have now been promoted. They now make great money. Great benefits. Will get a retirement. All because of others who wouldn’t vax. So those too afraid of a vax will leave a void when buried. Or by refusing the vax. Letting responsible people get ahead. Or they may just pull an oxygen tank around for life after surviving Covid. I know someone now doing that.
Two people who argued with me about Covid just buried relatives this month. They are worried about relatives in the hospital. They laughed for a year. On the plus side they finally vaccinated.
One of my relatives works in an over flower hospital. He says people come in begging for the vax. Tell him about their children that need them. The people they love. They beg for the vax. Then they die. And another anti vaxer takes their place begging for the vax but it’s too late.
I told those people some of these stories. But I said at least the funeral homes are making a lot of money.
Well these two people weren’t laughing anymore. They looked freighted. They decided they needed to leave the store. Go look for a place that might have the vax.
I may have saved their lives. So that was mean of me. But with good intentions.
Then I went back outside and got in the car with my good looking date. She got her vax when she could. Whew. She’s so good looking. But the rest of my date is too hot to share. I’m glad I’m vaccinated. I like having hot dates. I want to keep doing it for years. She loves that I’m vaccinated.
Drinking. Two of my roommates went off for a beach party good time when Covid hit. Just a cold.
Came back & it swept thru everyone they knew.
One of them had her family hit hard. She ended up in family. So did some of her relatives.
So after people she loved went on permanent disability & worse. She got cautious. So did her friend.
But now each of their oldest relatives are vaccinated. Nothing to worry about. Party time. They stuck their kid back in school. They are going to bars mask less to pick up men. They are in there hung over. But bragging about all they drank & the good times.
Now that the south has their beaches wide open with the deadlier mutations it’s time to go to the beach for a week again.
You can’t fix stupid. They are confident they will survive the new virus because they did the first. Their elders are vaccinated. So they have nothing to worry about anymore. Time to go live again.
That is why our nation is having so much more death & stuff than most countries. We have spoiled people who only worry about themselves.
This is why our not vaccinating sick young people & parents with young kids once we knew it was safe is wrong.
Oh I get that hospital staff is first. That group home disabled & elders are second. Even prisoners.
But none nursing home old people should be behind the immune suppressed kids. Behind very sick & immune suppressed adults with underage kids. Behind the disabled who can’t follow PPE type rules. Not to be rude, but they are old. Already lived.
Or; put them all in the same group.
Then should come any high risk.
Then anyone else.
It’s obvi with selfish people who do not care about anyone else, that we can’t rely on them to look out for anyone but themselves.
That’s a cost of freedom. We have to let a lot of people die because they want the freedom to go get drunk & spread the new variants of death.
One thing this has taught us is why some past plagues were so deadly. You can’t fix stupid. You can’t fix selfish.
If a really deadly virus hit us it would spread thru America like an inferno, because too many just don’t care.
I do wonder this. One came home stumble drunk. Talked about how the other drunk more than her & kept drinking. Both came back same time. So who drove?
The one is saying the other drunk even more. So did the other set & sober before leave? I didn’t see other come in. I’ve never seen either drive drunk. So I’ll assume the driver sobered.
I have never drank so I don’t even know how it works. I think bartenders check them. Hope so.
I worked with two drunks that got arrested after leaving bars drunk. They were so mad. Said the cops were waiting. I made a lot of people mad. I said good. I’m glad. I pay the cops to set outside the bars. Have a cab take you there. Then one has to take you home.
One guy said well what if I find a woman who only gets loosened up when she’s drunk?
You’d think the world would like me. I’ve never drank; smoked, or done drugs. I worked hard. Charity work. I volunteered to help people in life or death situations.
But you get sick & discover you don’t matter to society at all. You don’t ever want to be homeless.
You can tell people think Covid is over. People are talking to me again. So think some college aged females were talking to me about playing dodge ball or something. I’m old. But I just laughed and went with it. I enjoyed seeing happy people. Not sure why they included me.
I even got pulled into helping give a stranger guidance.
I’m just an approachable person. I look pretty & happy.
Once people get to know me they never want to see me again. I’m not mean. I’m weird. I can’t help it.
So I’m confiding to my best friend.
I have no friends. I do have 3 people who love me though.
Probably just got Covid. I’ve tried my best not to. Pretty sure a roommate has it. He won’t stay in his room. Will just come out & walk near others.
I’ve done well & wore mask. But I got woke up. Stumbled to bath. Came out. There the idiot was. Right in front of me. Mask less & talking. I then realized I’d forgot my mask. I hurt myself helping a different person. Now I lost focus.
Well I guess I get to see if that vax works. Why are people so selfish? He heard me. He has someone to get all he needs. Yet he takes zero precautions.
And of course I’m stuck here to make sure o don’t have it. He & his woman claim he doesn’t have it. How do they know? Uuugggg. Stupid Covid.
I wear a mask inside. I rent a little corner of a house. All my roommates laugh at me. But I stay in my room & wear a mask when I leave it. My roommates went to beaches & bars before mandates closed them. They brought back covid to all their families. After they got covid a second time & spread it to their families they finally got a vax. But when the beaches & bars re-opened they went again. I got my booster. They got omni & spread it to their families.
I’m so tired of being alone, but I haven’t had covid. They used to have fun & talk to each other. They were conservative & mocked my liberal views. But now they are always mad at each other. They can’t stand the right now. They blame the right for their getting covid 3-4 times. Now they are wearing masks again & getting boosters.
They all seem to have long covid. Their voices are deep & shallow. They walk slow & stay tired. They don’t go do any activities now. They can’t taste food. They don’t seem to notice they stink now. They seem to have allergies now. They sneeze around their pets.
They have stomach issues. Forget things. Are overweight & out of shape. Talk out loud. Get mad over minor things. One not only talks out loud angrily, but seems to answer themself. And starts crying. None of them care about each other now. Long covid?
I’m very sick & old, but they are catching up fast. Sadly, a lot of the family & friends are doing worse than me now. Or passed. I don’t get it. Had everyone worn a homemade mask & social distanced, most would be better. Many still alive.
Well at least I don’t have to hear far right pols now. They finally realize that group doesn’t care about anyone. It was sad to see some who mocked social health care, and now they need it. They’d say people struggling to buy meds needed to get a job. Now they complain about one med costing them hundreds a month. When you suddenly need a bunch of meds; struggle to breath; & stay worn out, it stops being funny.
Their bosses won’t ease up. The costs of meds don’t go down. Now they get it. Its sad to hear those who used to mock mask wearers come home angry that no one will wear a mask. Yet when one seems to have covid, they lie & say its allergies. Then the rest get it. I warned them. They also all want pain meds now. I hate to say it, but they need mental help now. But the far right mocks that, & they used to lean that way. I wish they’d go get help & take some happy meds.
I wonder how much longer I can dodge getting it. Well so far I have. I tell myself I wear my masks so I’ll live longer for my kids. But I stay sad. I try to hold on. But covid has made life so lonely.
Finally mad over Covid. My roommates first claimed Covid was just a cold. They rushed mask less to a state ran by idiots to goto clubs and beaches before it closed.
When they returned they mocked me wearing masks & going to a hotel. Well only I didn’t get it. A couple in hospital. One’s family hit hard. Very hard. That is horribly sad. But I tried to reason with them early on.
One of them didn’t get very sick & mocked the ones who did saying they were exaggerating a cold.
So they took it serious & wore masks for a while.
Vaccine came out. I drove to another state & for it. They were too afraid. What if the vaccine gives you Covid? Well when the beaches in some of these idiot states reopened off they went again. Mask less. Beaches. Bars. Partying. They came back to find I’d already went to a friends. You can guess the rest.
Well then they ali listen. All get vaccine that I hadn’t convinced yet.
But the one who is still convinced it’s nothing is now mad. He is now having to get endless calls to deal with sick people. He wonders why so many young healthy people are sick. Why going to hospital? Makes no sense to him.
To his credit he rushed out and got vaccinated ASAP after he got mildly sick from it the first time. But he watches that moronic conservative news. So he can’t figure out why so many young healthy people are sick and he’s sending them to hospitals in the state where we live.
So a year and a half in; I caught him finally reading up on Covid. He thinks maybe there’s something to it after all. Really? So the world shutting down didn’t tip you off huh?
Yet he will watch TV & cheer on these TV people & politicians loudly fighting against mask mandates and forced vaccines.
I tell him most of those people got vaccinated early. They will push their BS to enrich themselves, even if people pass because of them. Sickening.
Ever watch Monty python? “Bring out your dead”. For a year a couple have mocked my masks & when I got vaccinated. They’d tell their families not to do either. He knew. Trust him. Just a cold. Well they are going to funerals. Ordering masks. Got vaccinated. Wondering when they can get a booster. Worried about family in ICUs. They aren’t laughing any more.
“Bring our your dead”.
If only they had listened to me & tried to talk their family into masks & the vax.
On the plus side my hot date loves that I’m vaccinated.
My friend finally wore a mask. He’s laughed at the pandemic for a year. But when his dad died of Covid he finally wore a mask, to the funeral.
He was afraid before going because he convinced his dad Covid was nothing to worry about. Now the family blames him.
The friends wife got Covid. I told her she did. She argued. She gave it to her family. Now some are sick including a small child. Plus one of her aunts has died of Covid.
Anti vax. I know a man who was against the vax. He’s a good guy. But told his family it was a cold. Then most of his family got it. Hospitals. It spread to an extended family. Serious consequences. Most of them got vaccinated then. Now his grandson has it.
He works in a hospital. Once he realized it was bad he got vaccinated. I give him credit. But he feels masks & vaccines are a persons choice. Now as the hospitals fill back up with young people, he stresses about it.
I got one. It was nothing. I never even noticed I got it. Beats what I’ve seen from people with Covid. It’s horrible.
I was wearing masks from day one.
My young roommates have mocked me for my masks since the pandemic began. The other day my car was broken down & I needed a ride to my Vaccine appointment.
I asked if anyone could take me. They were all too busy watching TV & eating salsa.
So I called someone. Said bring some other people. Who knows. Sure enough. I got my vaccine and we waited. I walked in and asked if they had any left over vaccines they were going to have to dispose of. They did. I got two other people vaccinated. The lady said these two people drove all the way from another city to take you. Yes; over an hour each way. I’m very high risk. She was only too happy to vaccinate those sweet people rather than throw out the dosages.
So I went back & they joked about someone driving so far to take me. I just smiled.
A little later I heard them talking. Here’s some back story. I like these women. They are in their mid 20’s. Other than not knowing what clothes are indoors, I like being around them. But they don’t care about other people. Very anti Christian.
When Covid first hit; they saw all their free time as a chance to travel to beaches; bars, & parties in other states. Any place that stayed open. Mask less of course.
One came back hacking. I was wearing a mask & shield when they returned; just in case, they mocked me. I immediately headed out the back, & checked into a hotel. I’m on a very fixed budget. I called & told them to each self isolate. Go visit no one. They laughed at me. One headed to spend a week with her dads large family. House to house. Told everyone it was just her allergies.
I don’t know all the details. She doesn’t like to talk about it. I know some elders passed, but they couldn’t prove it was Covid. An aunt is permanently disabled now. Another aunt went on life support.
As for my roommates. They all got very sick. Most needed a hospital visit. Two still can’t taste or smell anything. I’m not laughing; but I walked in & gagged. I lifted up some smelly food they were eating. Mold on the bottom. They couldn’t tell. Then they threw up for a day.
Three of them have gained massive weight. Two complain they are always tired; their joints hurt; they now walk slow. They cough a lot, especially at night. It’s like a bunch of old people are in the house. I’m the old disabled person, & they make me look young some days.
Well I kid you not. Texas & Florida opened up their beaches recently. Off they went for a week. They came back talking about the crowded beaches; guys; endless drinking; parties, & bars. They admitted they got so drunk they took off their masks & partied.
None were yaking; & I’ve been vaccinated, so I just self isolated away from them.
But it’s funny. They are now worried. All these deadly variants are springing up in our state. It’s small so far, but what if it spreads? Now they suddenly want a vaccine, & are angered that healthy young people not working essential jobs don’t qualify. Well how about that. When they were bringing back the original that didn’t kill many young healthy people they didn’t care, but suddenly it matters when it may affect them.
So I told them about how if they volunteered to transport a disabled person; and stuck around at the end of the day, they might get a dose. Oh no. They aren’t doing that. The old people can get themselves there. They aren’t setting around unless they are guaranteed a shot.
One of them; the same one who infected her family; says she’s waiting till she can get the Johnson one. She’s not driving twice.
I see why Covid won’t stop spreading. White men are the biggest problem. I dress up like I’m on Mars. I try to follow the rules. Avoid crowds. But I must at times get out. Over & over I see white men with no masks. Not staying 6 feet away. I had a maskless idiot cough on me as they decided to crowd right up on me. I nearly said something, but that would have kept the moron near me.
Why are white males being so moronic about this?
I don’t get the anti vaxxers. I just debated a friend. I said let businesses decide. If one wants to be no mask; let them, then customers decide. If one wants to require masks or vaccine cards; then arrest any who defy that.
He argued you can’t force a business to close. I just gave each business the right to choose. He argued those who don’t like either should be able to go anywhere they wish. Nope.
I said require masks at school. Some disabled kids must have one on one. Let the anti vax school online.
There’s no way to reason with either side. Everyone just wants to argue.
He also said illegals spread it all. Not the anti vax. Really. I’m sure illegals spread some, but if the legal had got it we’d have heard immunity by now.
Some say I like to argue.
Funny thing. He works in the medical field. He came home upset a young mom was dying. He’s upset all the new cases are wearing him out. Well duh.
I see no way back. I have never fully recovered from nearly dying. Or did Covid do this. I just can’t focus enough to function.
I tried to change. To fix what was broken. I just can’t.
I try to interact with the world and people. I just can’t.
The stress is too much.
How do you get better when your body won’t let you?
I tried to talk to someone. It was useless. I made them mad without meaning too.
I messed with two of my roommates who can get the vaccine till they did. They are the Trump type. I’d talk about the deadly new strains. How it’s in our state. I’d get around them. Talk about how I’d been in a store by a guy who hacked on me & said he’d just been in London recently. I’d say they are cutting people’s hands off. Oh well. Not worth wearing a mask. Can wipe your butt with two hooks I guess. Makes eating and picking your nose hard. I used to know this guy...
They both went & got vaccinated.
Now if I could just become eligible before the Trump people give me the stuff.
Don’t think I’m mean. My female roommates laughed at me. They went to the beach & some parties. Came back all happy. I wore a respirator around them. They started getting sick. I locked my door. Stocked it real fast. And used my window to crap outside. They laughed. He’s crazy.
Well they went visiting. Soon two were hospitalized. Ones entire extended family had a break out. One now has to have oxygen & is permanently disabled. She was young. All sorts of bad stuff in her family.
So they were debating trying the beach again. I brought up the new deadlier strains. I said these are easier to catch & deadlier. They are now afraid to go shop once again. These are Biden lovers though.
What is it with people? You get sick to have fun. Come back. Mess up a bunch of your relatives. Then months later your thinking about going on another vacation to down to a beach where they now have deadlier strains?
They wear their masks. Till they drink. Then it’s roaming around beaches & parties with no mask.
I even got one of their teen sons worried this morning. They talked him back into school. I’d talked him into home school. He was all happy. But hasn’t been taking mask. I started talking about young people dying & all that from the new strains. He went in his room. Came out with a mask. I said have a good day at school. He looked worried as he left.
Sure. I’m messing with them. But am I being mean?
Preachers & the far right leaders have really harmed America. People need to take a long look at what they are doing to people. A deadly variant of Covid is in America. I know a wonderful disabled teen. He will not get vaccinated because a preacher convinced him not to. His parents convinced him the right is Gods side. So he listened to all the kooks.
Remember the Umpa lumpa saying drink bleach? Not wearing a mask? Then that fool got it. He was given great treatment. When he got vaccinated he couldn’t be a man and do it in front of his voters.
To his credit he did push the fast response. And he finally told people to vaccinate. But it was way late. The right has defiantly dug in. They will not vaccinate. So they are going to get hit hard soon. Such a shame. How many innocents will die?
There’s a time to stop the party line stuff. Covid was the time. The far right showed us they care more about power than those who vote for them.
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