Temper Confessions

I was hurt because of my siblings so I hurt my mom coz she was not punishing or scolding them.
I said mean words to her. I told her that I want her to die so I will be convinced she can't stand for me coz she is not here. I didn't talk with her for a month even I denied to eat anything she cooked for me. I was rude. It still hurts to think she didn't take stand for me but not more than what I said to her. I don't know if she will forgive me I don't know God will ever forgive me but I can't forgive myself ever for this sin.

#heartbreak   #guilt   #depression   #shame   #unforgettable   #temper  

There's this one guy in my school, he's always by himself, doesn't talk with anyone and looks like he's either going to fall asleep or throw a temper tantrum.
We have a new boy in school as well and he's Dominican. We live in a very small town where everyone know each other. So this new guy who didn't know that this other guy is strange wanted to talk to him and got rejected.
Strange guy told him to "fuck off! I don't want to talk to blackish people!" (That were his exact words)

I said to one of my friends that he certainly is a nazi and that assumption spread around town immediately. Now no one in town wants to talk to him or his strange family. Only because of me.

#strange   #temper   #tantrum   #nazi   #assumption   #confession  

To be honest, this has nothing to do with sex. I just wanted to get a message out and I knew most people usually go on this category. I've liked this guy for a little over a year now. We have a lot in common and we used to be really close because we were always having to sit next to each other in class. We had a band concert recently and I was really upset because this was the first concert I had where I wasn't sitting next to him. Later that week, I was hanging out with my friends when one of them.. let's call her May... brought up the topic of my crush... let's call him Brayden. I told them about how I felt after the concert was over and started to cry. All three of my friends... May... uh, Monica... and, uh, Alexis... told me I should just get over him. That is when I went full on rage mode.

They were telling me to get over him? For God's sake! I couldn't believe they went there! Alexis was fucking dating a guy from fucking Norway! May was fucking leading on a fucking senior (we are all freshmen)! Monica is asexual so I had nothing against her... but she has a secret admirer... let's call him Daniel... so, yeah. "Sure and in the meantime, May, you can stop talking to that Senior, Alexis, time for you to break up with that Norwegian guy, and Monica, you should just transfer schools so Daniel doesn't have to deal with your asexual ways!" I was so fucking mad!

By now you have all realised that I have a very short temper but I had a reason to snap. Next time you feel like telling someone to get over their crush, remember what it would be like if someone told you that. It sucks. We are separated now and Alexis commit suicide. I hate those girls so much for making me feel that shitty.

#love   #betrayal   #friends   #crush   #suicide   #remember   #tears   #hate   #temper   #message