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Hope Confessions

Read the best #hope confession stories

A good man. During the pandemic I’ve really tried to help. I’ve tried to be supportive on many levels. Such as how to deal with Covid.
I’ve tried to play many roles. When poetry was written in the past; it was entertaining, but also had a goal of educating.
I’ve tried to stand up for those marginalized. Gay people; the disabled, minorities.
Even though I back the Blue, I’ve attempted to push for social change. Our loved ones must be safe when interacting with authority.
I’ve refused to step back from my love for our military and the space program. We must always keep both strong and look of soldiers.
I’ve stood up for the homeless.
I’ve stood up for my Christian Faith. But I have also stood up for those of other faiths, or no faith at all. We all matter. I love all of you.
So I played fast and loose with the truth trying to teach. I’ve made up funny stories hoping to make people laugh. I’ve told sad stories hoping to open the humanity of others. I myself have endured so much sorrow, but I still have hope. Love is a powerful force. Kindness can lift others when life beats them down.
But the simple truth about me, is I’m just a pretty good guy.
I can sum up who I am in a simple story. As a boy I was endlessly mocked for my disabilities.
One day a large bully was doing what he always did. He’d wait till those in charge were not looking. Then he’d start hurting small kids.
Well athletically I was quite impressive. No one in charge would listen. So one day I watched him hurt a girl. She lay there crying. I stood watching. He came back and hurt her again. He was much older and larger than me.
I went and shielded her tiny body with mine. He came and hurt me. I absorbed the blow. “Now” God granted me permission to fight for His children. So I did. The whole place came to a standstill as a tiny disabled boy fought a giant. They had to drag me off.
People raised their voices after I was punished too. I came back bartered, and people thanked me.
I was given a nick name. Captain America.
People used to nick name me after super heroes. But I’m no super hero. Just a very broken person. Just a child who had no one to love them. I had to endure pain and sorrow, but I didn’t like watching others endure it.
Starting in my childhood I heard this all the time. “Don’t you ever shut up?”
No I don’t. I don’t care what this world does to me. But I do care what it does to you.
I’m no super hero. No saint. I’m just a nice guy.

No matter how dark this world may seem. Despair. Sorrow. There’s always hope if at least one little hand will hold up a tiny light. That light is hope. I choose love.

#hope   #love  

Self harm. Have you ever thought about it. Well please read this first. I promise you haven’t endured worse than me. Maybe as bad. Hopefully the moderators won’t block this post. I’m sure you’d rather hear about my giant penis & all the hot women I’ve had sex with, but there are people hurting, so let’s give them a few moments of our time. Every life is worth saving.
I could tell you about all the physical & sexual abuse I endured. The deaths I’ve seen. The horrors I’ve endured. But thats my burden. Lets say your a rich kid who has been spoiled rotten & wanted for nothing. So what. Your mind can make any life seem unbearable. Even for a young child. Gay. Straight. Disabled. Black. White. Boy. Girl. Undecided. Fat. Ugly. Its all just labels. Are you going to let others label you? If I did that I’d never have accomplished anything. I define me. Inside you have a soul. This world is hard. For all of us. Including you. I can’t promise you even one other person will ever love you. But you can choose to love one other person. Or a hobby. Or a good deed. You just need one purpose to give your life meaning. Pick an animal shelter. Send them a few dollars a month. Find a good charity that helps children. Send them a few dollars a month. Now; without you, a child or kitten will have less to eat each month. Or write a kind letter. Find a person in the world who needs it. Don’t put your name on it. Mail it. Now you sent a gift of love to another without any chance of repayment. You’ve now made the world a better place. For most people; with a little effort, they can get better. Exercise. Therapy. Meds. Happy music. Happy TV. A hobby. Watch sports. Any interest. Young people can usually grow up & move out of their situation.
For others a disease constantly reduces their options. They have less & less chances to change their situation. Two people can be in the exact same situation. One chooses to be miserable. The other tries to be a light for the world.
One tiny light. But with enough tiny lights the whole world can be brightened. But that can be hard. If trying to help others overwhelms you, then stop. Its OK to be selfish if thats how you can survive. Some people are here to touch millions. Others need to focus on saving one precious life, their own. I have no idea why I was here. But I’ve made some positive contributions, even if others didn’t really want me here. As I lay dying once, my final prayer was for the entire world to be spared. All souls. I have no idea how I’m still here. But I can’t live forever. Eventually my disease will win. Poverty will crush me. I’m no angel. Just somebody the world didn’t want. But I loved it anyways.
So I read about a teen who couldn’t face the world anymore. It overwhelmed him. His mom is successful. She seems to have everything. But her son couldn’t see a place for him in this world. So he left. Thats sad. Think about that even a child with health & wealth can break. If he could break, all of us could. Read the news. Look at all the lives cut short. Pray for them. Pray for the loved ones they leave behind. I would like to give his mom a hug. She wanted to follow him. But I’m just a nobody the world doesn’t notice. Hopefully someone in her life will care enough to lift her up.
But that little boy was just one light darkened too soon. Many others are going out too. People need to reach out to them “before” they are gone.
I hope some of you can read this. I can’t afford to read the stories myself, so I hope at least one person decides to fight instead of quit.
As for myself. My body seems intent on failing me. But I’m going to try something. Maybe it will help me hang around a little longer. I hate hospitals. If your problem is in your mind instead of your body, don’t be ashamed. The brain is much more complex than any other part of the body. If a leg or arm is broken do you laugh? Do you mock someone in a wheel chair. How about a little person? The blind? Well then if your disability is in your mind, its no less real than a broke arm. In fact, its much worse. The brain is very complex. Don’t be afraid to see a therapists. Take meds. Go to a hospital for help. Old age or a disease will extinguish your light eventually. No reason to speed that up.
As a child they wrote me off. Yet here I am. Your what “you” decide. Your not the labels people put on you. Don’t look to me for guidance. Look in the mirror & help that person out. They need someone to care about them. So love yourself. If you love yourself, at least one person loves you.

I spent hours writing this. At least one person cared enough to do that for you. So you must matter.



#hope   #despair   #depression   #love   #light  

My roommates used to party. They only listen after they get covid each time. Now each has had it 3-5 times. They have poop problems among endless others. They either cant poop or have diarrhea. I’m old enough to be their dad or grandpa, but they have some problems worse than me. At least they are now liberals & can’t stand the far right any longer. Their partying is now getting drunk in the house. I just went on a date with the most beautiful woman I’ve ever seen. It pays to vax; mask; eat right, & treat others well. She cooked for me. We ate & chatted. I even took in a movie with few viewers. Set in a corner with a loved one. Wore my mask. I haven’t had covid yet & got my booster. There’s nothing wrong with being safe.

#hope   #love   #romance  

Seeking the wrong help.
If you complain about issues to someone who’s death with the same issues. They tell you precisely how to deal with it. Then you triple down on doing the same thing that hasn’t worked for them for many years; and get sullen at you, don’t give up.
The fact that they dug in so hard; and you had such a response, means they listened.
Now if you just go back to being nice, maybe in time they will heed the advice.
You can’t force people to help themselves. But you can choose not to give up on them.

#hope   #help   #love  

Dear God. I swore I’d never harm anyone unless forced. I’ve lived up to that.
I swore I’d never kill unless forced.
I am a kind man with no malice towards any of your children on this earth.
But I also swore to my grandfather I’d protect my wife and children to the death. He lived thru WWII and told me all the horrors. I’ve tried my best to spread love and kindness.
I’ve also tried to get people to look out for my nations safety.
But society is losing it as I predicted. I’m on the side of the left. But only the peace and love. None of the violence.
Now the right has taken my capital. Mostly just selfies. But a few loons.
Now the cops are going bat crap crazy. Shooting kids. Killing kids. Driving over people. I can no longer trust the people in power with their power.
So I put my guns away long ago. I only kept them locked up; disassembled, and clean for a end of society type situation. I never expected to be in one. But I was correct. It would be triggered by a virus or nuke.
I just assumed it would happen long after my death.
So I’ve cleaned my guns. Practiced assembly. I’ve put them back up. I will probably have to go buy extra ammo.
Aahhh. Why can’t people behave? All we have to do is be patient.
Wear a dang mask. A face shield. 6 feet. Sanitize. It’s not hard.
I’ll grant you having like $1 to my name, and a pile of debt is near breaking me. But I’m still being kind.
Please God. Calm these people. I can hit a target 300 yards away. I don’t want that target to be a person.
I don’t understand why love is so hard. It’s just as easy to smile and love someone as to hurt someone.
We can make it thru this together. We have the vaccines coming. Patience. An asteroid didn’t strike the planet. If we all are forced to goto war; it’s only because people are stupid. I never envisioned this. Well; actually I did. That’s why I hate but own guns. The paradox. Great marksman. Full of love. Hates guns. Has disassembled guns. Vegan. Liberal.
Has the ability to be something you never want to face. Prays no one ever chooses to force me.
I thought we had it solved. There’s your vaccine. Patience. People getting nuts.
Oh well I’m not in panic mode. I’m just preparing in case these loons cause a Civil War.
I’ll be on the side of God.
There will be an angel of death watching over 4 of Gods little children. Any who come for them will face me on the battlefield. I’m very good.
Well. I’m half way ready. I’ll get all the way ready. Then I’m going back to watching comedies. So everyone behave. Don’t make me put down the remote.
This isn’t the end of the world people. It’s just a very stressful situation. We can survive it if we keep loving each other.
Turn off your hate. Trump had a bad situation. The economy was great. He ducked at health care. I was going to put in Sanders for health care & free college if possible.
Then this hit. Think about it. Trump had to mobilize an epic sized response with everything we needed in China. He had to prepare for war in case this was an attack. He had to keep some states open to grow food and make stuff. Big cities had to close. He had to deal with peaceful protestors (my side). Violent protestors from the left and right.
He unraveled at the end. The stress got to him. But he was in a war. With a virus. Maybe with super powers.
You do realize that may have been a test. How would we respond. Where are our weaknesses. What if a second wave hit us right now? A more deadlier strain.
We pray for peace but stay prepared and vigilant for war.
It’s an odd balance. Please forgive and love each other.
Well. Back to the Simpson's for me.

#insurrection   #violence   #love   #forgiveness   #hope  

hi,i am m 22
i don't know where to start. i am finding myself in a horrible situation these days. I took admission in a costly university for my graduation degree. I had spent all of the money for my fees over the years on myself and my girlfriend who does not have a clue about this. She thinks i am some rich brat. She loves me a lot and i love her.I always had thought i will make out a way out of my misery. But the problem is now my days here are going to end and i don't have a single clue for what i am going to do next. I want to support my family, i want to give everything to my girl, but all these hopes are fading away. i quit smoking 2 weeks ago, and that is the only thing i had done right in my past 5 years Now i am restless all the time.

#hopeless   #despair   #lies  

Georgia May now be a Godly State.
To be a true Christian means you care about others.
Too many Christians hate gay people; even if it’s their own kids. Are opposed to helping the mentally ill or homeless. Will defend the rare bad cop; even if they commit an unthinkable act; like slow choking a helpless man to death as he begs, or hunting down & shooting an autistic child in Utah.
To serve Jesus one must learn to love those who are different from them. Stand up & defend those who can’t defend themselves.
I’m literally amazed that the state of Georgia May have shifted to a kind state. God Bless them.

#georgia   #hope   #love   #election  

Memorial Day. I prayed for a relative I lost. Then I grilled. Showed my kids. Bought cheap meats & seasoning. Showed them how to do it. Used 1/4 bag of charcoal to cook 4 packs hot dogs; about 40 burgers, and 40 pieces chicken. Plus corn. Everyone said best ever ate. Better than steak. It’s the seasoning & technique.
Sorry war took you. I loved you. But I’m the kind man you wanted me to be.
I sent the best I cooked to some people the world forgets, and to people who dislike me. Forgiveness. Tolerance. Love.
War is an unpleasant necessity. Love is better if you can.

#war   #love   #peace   #hope   #forgiveness   #memorial   #day  

I have a crush at you but you didn't ever know that i exist how long should i wait for you hm? hope u can see me KTH.

#korean   #life   #hopes  

I’m stupid. I gave so much of myself and wealth helping relatives even though they endlessly harmed me. The things they did to me is the main reason I have nothing now and am very sick. I did it all hoping one day they’d love me. I’ll never have their love. I finally broke away but life pulled me back
Trying to forgive them destroyed what was left of me.


People are wondering about politics. They are blaming the current leader. He just got in. He hasn’t done anything yet. So he can’t be at fault. The previous guy was great at that, until he faced a pandemic.
Have you ever seen us so divided? I didnt worry much until the very end. Then we had crazy people in the capital.
Now they blame the previous guy for that. I heard the word “peaceful”. So he was not the cause.
One of his assistants did seem to say words that may have helped cause that.
Now most of the people in there just posed for selfies. But there were some possibly dangerous ones. And at least two very dangerous ones.
But we have to look at things without picking a side or being nuts ourself. I don’t see this as us vs then. Because for me it’s al of us are us.
I’ve offered encouragement; advice; ideas. But I’m just one person.
But there at the end it got a little scary. I hope they take security very serious. That insurrection was nuts. The more I read about it, the scarier it was.
They need to really keep him safe. There are nuts out there.
The pandemic has caused great division. We need to become one.
But there’s something that bothers me. We have multiple variants of this virus. Is the virus mutating that fast? Or is that someone releasing multiple variants into our population? If that’s it we have to be very vigilant. That would mean someone is doing this on purpose. Why? To invade us? To test us? Just to do it?
Now it’s probably just a random virus mutating. But we must consider worse case, and hope for best case.
See, the problem with this is if we are under attack or being tested, they would be releasing variants.
And don’t just assume no one is. Think about it. We were all fine and dandy. And I hen wham. We are knee deep in this crap. There should have been time to slowed this down. We got slammed. The whole world got slammed.
So did someone realease it in that country on purpose to make them look bad. Or did that nation do this to all of us on purpose. If they did was it just to test us. To advance their position. Or to start a much more dangerous thing?
I k ow that sounds crazy, but remember 9/11. Did you see that coming? I did. I predicted it about a year before. See we as a people must realize the weapons of this world are spreading. Everyone’s got nukes now. And large missle tech. And rocket tech. You do realize when some people put crap in orbit; they are really just testing missiles. They could use that same tech to deliver nukes right on any of us.
There’s a dude who fed his own relative alive to dogs. This guy now has missies and nukes.
Then there’s a nation that is very hostile towards us. That’s generating attacks towards our troops. This nation caught one of our drones. Just flew it down and ran off with it. That means someone sold them the codes and stuff. That was set up espionage.
This nation is quickly working towards middles and nukes.
Well a virus does mutate. Once it’s released into a large population you can expect it to become more tame. That’s because all the deadlier variants are more lethal quicker. If everyone can goto ground it stops itself. By killing all its victims.
The variants that do the least damage are accepted by the host the easiest. These strains of the virus are now part of us. Like the common cold. We don’t care much. It stays alive to go carrier to carrier. See it must keep moving host to host to stay alive because our bodies are always killing it. But by then it’s on to other hosts. That’s the common cold. It just migrated around the world. We coexist. We just slowly react to it. It just moves on. We both stay alive.
But the new virus is a mother. It’s kicking us hard. Why is that? Because we got donkey Kong slammed that’s why. The question is why and how.
Well I think it cane from a lab. They set on it. Then wham. It was on us.
Now did they set on it because their government is socialist? If so that’s not an attack, but it is dangerous. Chernobyl. Go watch that. Now look at where we are at. They wanted to hide the truth & try to contain it. We got slammed.
The Who head helped cause this by sitting on the fact a pandemic was building up inside their border. When it finally broke loose we were not ready.
Chernobyl was the same problem. Had their society not been so closed in secretive the world could have helped. It got so bad those goons almost wiped out Western Europe. So I know I sound crazy. And I am a little. But we have to be vigilant because socialists are nuts at the leadership level. They treat humans like a slave class. Like animals.
Now look at the pandemic again my fellow humans. We are all getting freaking donkey slammed because a nation hid this internally until it grew out of control. Then it burst out of their borders and swept over all of us. It almost killed me already. That ticks me off. I’ve got a disabled kid with a poor immunity hiding from this crap. I can’t teach him not to touch his nose. If he dies it’s because of those clowns. Do you get that?
My sweet love I’d hanging on by a thread from a different diseas. If this hits her it’s becausd of those clowns. If she gets it she will die. It will be their fault. Do you get that?
So we as a global community must hold them accountable. Not by going to war. But by forcing them to be more open. Had they allowed The Who in there we could have helped control this.
So we all must start making more of our stuff in our own borders. US in US. W Euro in W Euro. The US can include Canada & Mexico. We can all share with Australia. But they need to be more self sufficient.
South America does their own thing so we have to leave them to it. They are in league with Russia & Iraq it seems. So I guess they will all sort it out. Russia already is self contained & supposedly is more honest now. So I think they would warn the world.
This isn’t about politics. This is about us warning each other. Working together. Do all of you see why this is important now? Is everyone tired of hiding and seeing people die yet?
See best case this was from a bat in a wet market or some such. That’s probably a cover.
Next best case. It’s from a lab near that wet market. Someone went in a cave. People got sick. Died fast. They contained it. Put it in a lab. They study it. Some idiot either accidentally or on purpose releases it. Janitor. Angry person. Now Chinas gotta deal with it. Like in Chernobyl; the secretive closed off socialists try to hide what’s happening. No media to warn the world. They grab up doctors so they cant talk. The WHO is not allowed inside. There are rumblings of the truth within the WHO. But the leader doesn’t tell the world & keeps it suppressed. The world is under the impression that it’s a minor thing. It doesn’t really transfer easy. Then it’s not that bad.
Wham. We get hit. Now I had already did some stuff. As soon as I heard China travel is closed I went to ground. I had most of my 2-3 yrs of supplies ready as soon as I heard the rumors. Had it not gotten loose I’d had to use up that crap & just like the other 2 times I’ve done this in the last 40 years or so I’d heard about how I’m paranoid. But it’s funny when 9/11 happened I already had a giant pile of plastic; tape; food. My wife thought I was crazy as I spent a year getting ready. I needed to be able to survive a chemical attack for 4-5 years. The plastic was for my windows the food for my family. I had my escape plan ready. My supplies.
She laughed at me. Then it happened. She said how did you know? Because I’m smart. When the asteroid hits one day the world will need smart people like me to survive. To pass down my genes. To help any of you I can to survive also. So we can rebuild the world. Letting myself die by laziness. And my high IQ children will hurt any survivors. So I owe it to you to try to save myself. Even though I don’t fear it. If I die I goto Heaven.
So when the avian & stuff happened I piled up my stuff. And nothing happened. It was contained. Then my wife laughed and got onto me.
She accused me of being crazy this time. Well. In all honestly I’m nearly dead. I can barely walk. But I owed it to the world to drag my butt around and protect my smart children. Just in case this became a pandemic. No offense. It most of you will not get us out into space. There’s a chance some of my kids may. We shall see. They are smart. But not like me. They just seem like smart normal kids. No one got the very high IQ. But maybe one of my grandkids. But either way I’m their daddy so I protected them because I loved them.
This time she didn’t ask how I knew. She gave up a long time ago. She just accepts I know. So I thought I was ready when it hit. Then I found out we needed new very specific items since one of my kids had almost died as this was hitting. Now I was out there with all of you. That’s ok. I know how to protect myself. You should have seen people staring at me before this hit.
I looked like I stepped out of a movie in all my PPE. For weeks I was getting all the cheapest stuff. All the sales stuff. Putting it away. Then I went home & waited. I heard how I’m crazy. My being nearly dead had driven me crazy.
Then it hit. My wife cried. Thanked me for trying to save them.
Then my child being sick put me out there with all of you. I was like crap. I was ready. Now I’m in the craze too. Thankfully while y’all were fighting over toilet paper I was looking for things most people don’t need. Only so many of us need what I needed for him.
But I’ve survived.
How do you people avoid this in the future? I’m currently leaking blood out of places. So I’m trying to use my own medical knowledge to save myself. Safer than a hospital right now. But if I die I’d feel bad if I didn’t warn you.
I don’t care if China wants to be socialist. That’s up to their people. But we can’t have this again. The next virus may be much worse. It may be man made. Who knows. This one may have been. I’m not going to explain it all.
China has to allow two different world health groups inside. To monitor such things. To sound the alarm to the rest of us. To allow smart people to help them deal with it early.
If they want to sell all of us goods, then they have to play nicely with others. We can’t all be dying because they are a paranoid government that treats their population like slaves.
The head of the WHO was China’s choice. He is a large reason why we are here. They had suspicions it was jumping human to human quickly. But that’s not what the were telling us. As I was hearing rumors I was calmly buying up all the bulk toilet paper on sale. Wearing my PPE. People stared at me. Laughed at me. Let me tell you something. We are a global community. If China was stonewalling the WHO. That meant China had an outbreak they were trying to contain. Which meant some bozo had already brought it to my country. So my country would blossom eventually. So I loaded up. If it were nothing then I’d just not have to but toilet paper for 3 years. But if it was I’d watch TV as all of you chased TP. I had N95 material ready & calmly hand fitted custom masks to all of my loved ones. I remember my wife asking what if someone tries to get it. Let’s say I’m prepared for that too.
So now that this was just an easy one I hope the world has learned. You need borders so you can close them. If a nation wants to trade on a large scale; they have to let you monitor a few things such as virus outbreaks so we can help them deal with it.
We need control over who is appointed head of the WHO. Do you now see why world? They put s puppet stooge in charge. He was more worried about his pocket book than all of you. What little info they gave him he believed. As data trickled into him he suppressed it.
Do you see why any of you that are not socialist should never become socialist? It sounds good on the surface. Let’s all share. Common good. But men are corrupt. I’m not saying these men wanted to do this. I’m saying they naturally suppressed things to hide it from the world. Important people in key places were someone’s relative rather than qualified. There was no independent news to warn the rest of us. It broke out. They had plenty of PPE. Because they make it all.
All of you out here are trusting the WHO. They are trusting their leader. He’s trusting the people who put him in place; China. As it breaks out who does China blame? The Australians; the US; W Euro. Thank on that. Why would we do this to ourselves? But they want their population to believe that. Do any of you want to be socialist? A free democracy with a very free press is the best. Oh it has major issues. But at least you don’t get crap like this. One of our annoying reporters would break the story. Yes we have clowns in the streets. But I’m not out there with them.
The funny thing is; out of all this death. We will be a better people. We will make changes that forces some close minded people to treat others better. Then their kids will grow up more inclusive. We will be nicer. We will be better off. If In life you can’t control when something bad happens. At least try to make the world a better place for anyone who comes out the other side.
Think about a group of people that you don’t like. Why do you not like them? Well; instead of looking for a reason to hate them. Why not look for a reason to coexist? I have worked with devout Muslims. I’m Christian. We got along great mostly. A few we just coexisted. I’ve had Jewish friends. Mormon friends. Jehovah Witnesses. Atheists. You know why? They all felt under attack in a situation. I held out a hand.
After 9/11 I saw a Muslim man isolated. I went and set beside him and talked to him. Some very large men were saying hateful stuff towards his empty table. Now he had a very large man beside him. I pulled my large cross out of my shirt & hung it out. I pulled out my pocket Bible and started to read. Anyone who attacked now knew they’d be fighting a Christian too. They all backed off. Oh I was hated after that by some I had some people who treated me very badly as my health failed because I had done that. I’m their eyes I wasn’t a Christian anymore. In my eyes. I was more Christian than them. Maybe I’m wrong.
I once saw a Jewish family being harassed. I got hold of them and asked them how they were doing. Helped calm the dad. Let him know a Christian loved him. He needed to know at least one Christian loved him wanted his kids in school with mine.
A lot of people laugh at me for being autistic. I hear them make fun of the way I talk. How I walk. My odd behaviors. The odd way I try to communicate. But that’s OK. I pray for them anyways. I love them anyways. They don’t have to love me back.
You want two individual world health agencies who in turn share their data. This means if one crook on the take gets in charge of one; hopefully the other isn’t corrupted. This way if one alarm is not rung. The other is. This will force them to compete with each other for the worlds funding. This will help save all the world from going thru this crap again hopefully. Never fully trust any leader. No matter how much you love them. Always seek to balance two sides of a democracy. Both sides represent about half the people. If you balance it; each side gets some of what they want. Then try to figure out whose not being helped. Slowly shift the balance until they are. The world will be a better place if we all matter.

#pandemic   #division   #unity   #hope   #love  

I am completly in love with a married woman, i have been for a few years. I know its wrong and will cause her much pain, i am selfish and foolish.


I go days without sleeping. I have not really talked to anyone in over a year. I think I’m going batty. I try to tell myself I’m important. But I’m not. No one wants to see or talk to me.


My mother has been psychologically, physically, and verbally abusive since I learned how to walk pretty much. She got into deep shit for it when teachers found out one day, and now she just abuses me verbally and psychologically because it won't leave bruises or cuts.
One day my father left her because he couldn't stand it anymore. Now It's just her and I.

I feel so torn down by her that I repeatedly lose hope looking for a job and apartment, and each time reality strikes, making me see that I'm stuck with her. I just want to die sometimes.

#abuse   #hopeless   #physical   #psychological   #verbal   #divorce   #suicidal  

I told my crush that I am not in love with her because I don't want her to be annoyed. I hope I can increase my chances to get her some day... The only problem is that I can't be without her and I guess some time she'll notice...

#crush   #love   #annoy   #hope   #chances  

I'm 21 single and a virgin... I'm the kind of girl who's waiting for the right person, right moment, you know shit like clichés. But ever since when I was 14 I've been wondering of my body and every year pass by my exploration increases making me get to this point right now making me feel so ready to do it, but my question is with whom? I feel so turned on even just by looking at some hot guys on campus, discreetly fantasizing their cocks. (TBH) And when I'm fucking wet until I get home I just do it. Sometimes I watch porno to pass time or movies with hot sex scenes like Fifty Shades of Grey I allow myself to feel the pleasure. This is like a hopeless sex life for me (i think). I feel like it could've been better if I can finally, actually feel the real thing inside of me.

#masterbate   #hopeless  

Should they impeach Trump?
I try to be fair. He did a lot of good things when the pandemic. But he seemed a little off towards the end. Arguing about the count.
I watched Gore do the same.
Do we blame him for the riot. I honestly haven’t heard invite a riot. My phone hasn’t played it all yet I’m sure.
I think I heard him say go to the...peacefully. Have your voice heard. That isn’t inciting a riot.
That said “why” the rally? I know Dems do it to. But at what point couldn’t he accept that he had lost?
I felt he’d be best for the economy. But switched to Biden before the election over social justice issues.


As a child I had no home. My parents didn’t want me. I had to learn to never feel safe or happy, because it wouldn’t last.
As an adult I once had it all. Then I got sick.
I’ve been homeless again for a while. I’ve been helping a friend with some repairs. While there a family emergency arose. Im helping with that.
It’s so funny; the friend said thank you, I’ll get you back to your home as soon as possible.
I just smiled.

I have no home. I was just helping them, and they suddenly needed me.

I have no home.

I’m glad God is allowing me to help good people.

PLEASE GOD, HEAL THIS KIND WOMAN AND HER SICK CHILD. I’ll do all I can. Please protect and look after her other children as well. I’ll trade every moment I have left if you’ll heal this wonderful family. These tears I shed are not for me; I gave up on me so long ago. It’s for these kind people who need your love.

Its so weird sleeping in a bed and hearing laughter. I’m glad I could make them smile.

It’s so difficult to say goodbye to yesterday.

I pray I give them hope once again.

Merciful Father grant that this broken shell of a man serve you. Help me help them. Then I can fade away knowing I helped others smile again.

#love   #hope   #compassion   #kindness   #cry   #tenderness  

You are my ultimate obsession but I will not move my finger about it.


I've always loved dragons and draconic things more than anything else, they are the only reason i am alive nowadays. its always been my fucking dream to just be one with one, I've wanted to be with/married with one, and have been attracted to them but its not just that, truly and deeply care about them. I love them more that I can put into words on here. i would love to spend every day caring and loving them. to make them feel treasured and pleases. the only thing i want in life is to be a dragon, together with a dragon

I know they don't and most likely will never exist. and honestly its one of the things that depresses me the most, that the one thing I want, the one thing I have always wanted in life and the one thing that I love, will not and will never exist. and it hurts, I've woken up from dreams where I was a dragon or was with one, and cried. It feels like I was a mistake, like I will never get to live a life where I get to truly live. One where I can show how much I love something and how much I want to be something with all my heart

No one in my life knows this, I live a fairly average life, I feel, I have a positive relationship with my family, I have a nine to five job with no real goal for a career. I have a few friends that I occasionally hang out with sometimes. Never been in a relationship, never wanted to, at least not with anything that isn't draconic. No one knows this, they all just assume I am just a normal person. and I guess in most aspects, I am. No one knows about this, or for this need I have had for my entire life, for 22 years

I have no idea what to do, I fall asleep hoping there's a dragon next to me, sunlight reflecting off her scales with a warm smile. the only way I can cope is by enjoying media with dragons, or well, at least the ones where they don't kill them. and I don't what to do. I've debated ending my life, just because of the hopelessness of never going to have this happen. I've stood on overpass debating if I should I love them and always will.
and I have no idea what to do.

#hopelessness   #love  

Pray and roll the dice for #hope

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