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For years now I puke my guts out and no one knows about it.
Everyone thinks I am fine and healthy while I hate myself, I just can't be disciplined. Everyone thinks I am happy but I am not.
#despair #puke #guts #healthy #fine #hate #disciplined #confession #happy #secret
I miss her so much. I shouldn't hurt so bad. I'm a grown man, with a professional job.
She hurt and betrayed me for years, but I can't stop or let go.
I have been drinking for the last 8 days just to make it stop and it won't.
I am so afraid.
I don't want to die but I don't know how else to stop hurting.
I'm ruined.
I was listening to a woman on the radio sing about how I broke her heart. While thinking about how I broke another woman’s heart. All the pain I caused others. I’m sorry. Why do good people love me? I’m not worth it.
I love my boyfriend and he means the world to me but there's this other guy I think about all the time
I promised myself I'm done with him yet I find myself coming back and it's tearing me apart
hi,i am m 22
i don't know where to start. i am finding myself in a horrible situation these days. I took admission in a costly university for my graduation degree. I had spent all of the money for my fees over the years on myself and my girlfriend who does not have a clue about this. She thinks i am some rich brat. She loves me a lot and i love her.I always had thought i will make out a way out of my misery. But the problem is now my days here are going to end and i don't have a single clue for what i am going to do next. I want to support my family, i want to give everything to my girl, but all these hopes are fading away. i quit smoking 2 weeks ago, and that is the only thing i had done right in my past 5 years Now i am restless all the time.
when i was younger i found the love of my life but i was poor and everyone looked down on my family cause most of them really amounted to nothing so i never would do anything we loved each other held hands we were inseparable but i was scared i would ruin her life so i told her no every time it almost lead to something till i nearly cracked so i left and told her we could not see each other again i kno she still cares about me but its been years im married now have kids and love my wife but never as much as i still love her and i wonder as time goes on if i ever got a time machine i would go back and try to change it because my wife and i have had problems it has nothing to do with this other girl either i never cheated nothing like that but just normal problems expected from my past and hers but i keep thinking i would tell myself if you were with her it might have been different maybe you wouldnt have fucked up that bad so i would end up trying but then if i did and no matter how hard i tried i still ended up ruining her life and then i would definitely go back and try to change that to and i would end up in an endless loop of misery and that makes me sad it feels like im just faking now cause eveything in my life not just this and im just walking around pretending like im not meant for true happiness and the only thing i can do is make other people happy and i have been feeling like its starting to not matter to me anymore i dont feel anything anymore for making other people happy cause i know im just going to be miserable again any minute i get its depression but i thought of it and i really hate the social system we have in place and thats why i think there needs to be a real change instead of safe spaces
#depression #love #change #despair
Because I had a cold the last few days I didn't shower. But I had to drive my kids to school nevertheless and I had still some tasks to do. So I took my youngest boy (5 months old) and drove off to buy food. The only thing I could think of while in the store was a hot shower and I decided to drive home quickly to get one.
I bought all the stuff we needed and drove home. In the car on my way home I was sure I forgot something but I just couldn't find out what it was. At home, I immediately hopped under the shower and then I remembered!
I left my little son at the supermarket!!
I got back to the store and indeed, I left my son in his maxi cosi at the cash desk....
I know it's no excuse but I was very sick and I haven't slept for a few days. I can't tell you how sorry I am and this will not every happen again...
I want to confess that I am a terrible mother.
#mother #bad #terrible #cold #sick #shower #kids #forget #son #supermarket #store #confession #sin #despair
My story and confession is a long and sad one just to warn the reader.
My story begins with prom. I had never dated anyone before asking her to go to my senior prom (male 20 before you ask yourself) and she was a freshman. We danced and were friends before prom, but I took the leap of faith at the end of the night and kissed her. Which started a year long relationship where I absolutely fell in love with her. I would have died for her if I had to, gone through any hardship the world threw at us because I accepted her for who she was and loved her regardless. (Now for the sad part)
Even before the relationship started my life dream was to join the US military. I picked the Navy which she absolutely hated because I had to leave periodically for 4 years (was what my contract was) and left for BT on Feb 4, 2015. She demanded that I write her every day but basic only allowed Saturday's. Anyway, when I hit medical, MEPS never knew I had Aspherger's Syndrome (my recruiter never sent them the files of my diagnosis as a child) and I was sent home on fraudulent enlistment on Feb 27, 2015. (now resolved and cleared through court) When I came home, no one recognized me and my family had a hard time because I was sick, fatigued, depressed, and hallucinating mildly from sleep deprivation. I stood in front of my mom for 15 minutes before she knew it was me. I got a new phone and immediately texted her expecting comfort and compassion.... All I got was the longest, saddest text of my life. She broke up with me because I "didn't love her enough to stay home," essentially. So now completely heart broken, I turn to my friends for support and learning that within a month she had turned all but 3 of my friends against me. All of which now think I'm some kind of sexist asshole who doesn't support women going to college, that I burn down schools, and think I'm a babykiller. Month down the road, I've lost my mind to depression, loneliness, and on Easter day, I find she has done the same thing to my cousins because I caught the one I trust the most talking with her about how "fun it was to watch me in agony," that it was "hilarious to watch me burn and lose my sanity." With that I fucking lost it and walked 2 miles to the rails crying the whole way, begging god to make it stop.... I watched three trains go by.... And the only reason I'm still here to type this is a total stranger dialling 911 and getting the police to talk sense into me. I was hospitalized and told I had mild PTSD, and major depression. Hate was all that remained. To this day I still hate her, have a hard time trusting others, can't make friends, hate life, and have learned to live alone. Lastly the only reason I don't let the hate consume me is that what goes around... comes around.
Thank you for listening.
I have no goals in life. I have no ambition. I have nothing to thrive for. I have no compassion.
I do not want to waste my life, but I do not know what do change either.
So, I guess, I am just living this blank, unassuming, boring and plain life. And that sucks big time. Why bother living?
#despair #life #boring #lonely #confession
I wish my wife loved me as much as she says she does. I have given her everything and do everything I can to make her life easy. I work so she doesn't have to, I do various chores so she doesn't have to I cook and care for our children but yet everything that comes out of her mouth is negative. We barely have sex and when we do she just doesn't seem interested. I don't want to leave because I fear for my kids, not that they will be beaten but for the upbringing that she would provide would not be ideal. She yells and screams at them more than she should and I feel if I left she would go into a mental break.
#lost #wife #love #despair #confession
So I consider myself a pretty selfless, goody to shoes person. I just love helping people. But in doing so, I'm tearing away pieces of myself and giving them away. For example, I helped a friend get out if depression. But by doing so I saw my own insecurities, like I gave away my confidence to her. I feel despair. The worst part is I don't know what to choose. Happiness for myself, or helping other people.
My bf didn’t reply my messages almost 17 days, i guess it’s time to be single again. I love him. I rejected everyone because of him, i will wait for him another one month. I hope when the semester starts, we will be okay again. I hope it’s true when he said that his house doesn’t have internet signal, but deep in my heart i know sometimes he can find the signal. I can see his last online status actually hahahah but sometimes i see he didn’t online for 1 week. Online just for a few minutes but didn’t reply my messages hahhahhahahah
Please say that he wasn’t lying.
#love #why #secret #despair #relationship #boyfriend #single
Well since like 2 days ago I started fingering myself and rocking myself like if I had a pennis beneath me and I get so horny so 2 days ago I started going to the couch at night to finger myself but the couch is so fluffy that I started to jump and rub my vagina to the couch and imagined I was on top of someone and I even did that on the arm rest... Long story short I get horny when I sit on the couch
#horny #fingeredmyself #couch #despair #masturbation #girl #teen #hornyteen
Just as I neared death God gave me a second shot at life.
I started changing but didn’t change fast enough.
Now everyone I love is paying a heavy price for my failure.
I feel like I need to be disciplined but I am to afraid to tell anyone I can do some really bad things and get away with it
#discipline #getaway #despair #bad
I feel like I'm not good enough for people to even bother with me. I don't really talk to anyone because I have literally no social instinct and I'm extremely socially awkward. When I'm around other people, I don't really want to socialize, but then I'll be alone and wish I talked to people more. Any ideas on how I fix this?
I am just so damn fucking lazy. There's something I should have done weeks ago, but I just started the process for it today. I lied about it to everyone I know and they think I got my shit together now... More or less.
I need to get my head out of my ass and start doing shit.
#despair #lazy #wtf #confession #sin
I hate my life. I have hit rock bottom. My wife of five years, together for fourteen years cheated lied and style since I met her. We divorced and now I find out she is fucking one of my buddies. He just had a baby. She broke them up. A six months later I meet this beautiful lady, we hit it off, had crazy hot frequent kinky sex, fell in love. Turns out the entire time she has been fucking other dudes from a hookup site. Just before I figure all that out she rips me off.
So I start thinking about this right. There's a trend. All my friends, buddies, even best friends, all the people I've had in my life including the two women have faded away when I can't lend money or help them out. The only people who call me ask for money or favours. I'm not rich by any means, but I share what I have.
Now I'm broke and alone. No friends left, my fucking dog doesn't even like me anymore I think. My whole life everybody who smiles at me has been laughing at me. Look at that idiot go. Moron doesn't even know I'm fucking his woman. Borrowed money off him to go party with other guys.
I'm done. People suck. I have nothing left.
I outlived my expiration date. I fought to live until a major surgery. I survived. Then I almost died. There’s no way I should have lived. Then I guess I had Covid. I had no money or way to a hospital. I just lay in a floor alone for days barely getting water and a little food.
I did all of that just to find out no one wants to talk to me. Oh I have children. But no car that reach them. No money to live near them. They love me but a disease makes it impossible for me to see them.
I wonder why God doesn’t love me. I served Him my whole life, but He doesn’t care about me.
I get so confused. I called my hospital trying to sort things out. No one knew anything. Then some woman told me off about paying my bills. I don’t owe them any money. I was just trying to find a way to see someone for less money so I could afford to stay alive. She told me off. Said she has co pays with her insurance. Well sure. But she has a job. I can barely walk.
I was just trying to explain to them that I can’t afford to pay more money like they want me too That by limiting when I can see them I can’t walk over 100 miles.
I usually sleep on my right side but last light for some reason i could only get comfortable laying on my belly, so i ended up falling asleep that way. I woke up this morning to severe discomfort and quickly realized my penis had twisted up and was pushed into my body and it was fully erect aswell. I tried to pull it out but i felt as if it was locked in two direct ways. It's still like that and it won't go flacid.i'm so embarrases to go to the hospital because i don't egen know what to make of this. Has anyone ever experienced anything like this before. I am really freaked out.
#penis #injury #weird #bizarre #confused #embarassed #humiliated #medical #distress #depression #despair #desperate
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