Loneliness Confessions

I hate my "friends"

No matter how many times nor how many ways I have tried to tell them and let them know that I want them to include me in things they do, I am tried of being left out of everything they do.

How hard is it for people to actually act like a "friend"

Is it really hard to simply call or text and say "hey we are going to do this, would you like to come?"

#friends   #hate   #loneliness  

I have feelings for someone close to me but we both don't want a relationship at the moment. I got lonely and bored and was browsing online came across an escort site I got curious didn't do much but randomly kept going back then when horny/bored. I usually ended up just going to a porn site till one of these days I actually started messaging one of the escorts and then I met up and did the deed with them. I feel bad for doing it cause I have feelings for someone close to me. I just got to the point of loneliness and I burst. I hate myself for what I did. Why did I do it am I bad for doing what I did, I just really am a stupid sod.

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I don't have a single friend on this planet. I have some online people I talk to but they really aren't friends. I thought they were but aren't. My husband only stays with me because I support him. My kids don't even like me. My dog got mad at me for getting my daughter a dog of her own and won't have anything to do with me. I'm the most lonely and miserable person on the planet. My grandmother was my best friend and she died two years ago. I haven't spoken to anyone at all for more than a few minutes since she died. I wonder almost daily if everyone wouldn't be better off without me. I honestly don't think anyone would even notice I was gone.

#loneliness   #mydogevenhatesme  

I feel every day am living a life of another person, something that seems I borrowed and I don't feel complete. I've just tried to be "perfect" all the time proving am better than others and showing fake confidence but every time there is this hollowness inside which I cannot get rid off..i feel there is this invisible line out there which I have to cross but i really don't think i have the courage to, all these things I've been wanting to do are getting pilled up and there is no place to breathe...it feels as though I've stopped breathing years ago and now am just trying to survive every day, trying to fit into the crowd but there is this voice in my head which keeps reminding me how I don't belong here.

#loneliness   #confessions  

I smoke cigarettes to numb my loneliness, knowing full well it may kill me someday.

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Even though I'm surrounded by people and I'm enjoying myself, I still feel lonely and sad. I don't enjoy being alive and I feel like a husk of what I could be.

I've always felt this way, but I wake up each time I lose someone I love more than anything. Someone I dedicate my life to amd it somehow still isn't enough. Since I've given my heart away to people who just shattered it over and over, I'm a deeply troubled person.

Every night it's a battle to go to sleep, because I don't have someone to take care of me and make me feel better from all the people who hurt me and made me this way. I want vengeance on them for doing this to me, but I can't do anything about it.

So many people have harmed me both physically and emotionally, and all I ever want is someone who can help me heal from all of that. Someone I can dedicate my life to and feel appreciated and loved.

It hurts being alone, being treated this way over and over with only false hope to look up to.

#loneliness   #suicidal   #existentialism   #sadness   #pessimism   #abuse  

I am an asexual and I crave to be in a loving relationship minus the sex. But things will be difficult, and I'm a coward.

#asexual   #loneliness   #relationship  

It's been 8 years since my first (and last) sexual relationship. Nowadays I find myself thinking about propositioning men, consequences be damned. I need to get laid so badly it's not even funny anymore.

#sex   #loneliness   #needs  

tired of being alone..sooo tired of being alone. Always.

#depression   #loneliness  

I sometimes secretly wish my wife would die. I love her and I always will but sometimes I miss the freedom I had when I was single. Divorce is out of the question so the only way our marriage can end is if she dies. If she does die then I already know what my life will be. I can smoke, drink, and eat myself to death and that is how I will be most happy to die.

#death   #loneliness   #marriage