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I am currently getting over my addiction to self harm. All up and down my legs are scars from me cutting myself. The relief it gave me and the endorphins it released were so nice, but I've promised my girlfriend I'd stop. Penguin, I love you!!
I have an eating disorder, but I haven't told anyone because no one will understand what I’m going through. I’m addicted to eating and I don’t need know how to stop it.
#food #addiction #health #secrets #hatemyself
Hello!
I confess to being a cocaine addict, among other things that I want to confess about. This is a long story and I will keep it as short as possible. It all started when I was in middle school, just as I was finishing 8th grade, i had reached a point in my life where I had become aware of how alone I was. I was being bullied my whole life in high school but only when I turned 14 did the loneliness begin to really hit me. I wanted to fit in with everyone so badly that I was willing to do anything. Once, I saw a group of popular kids doing drugs in the bathroom stall and they caught me looking at them. I asked if I could join and they didn't believe that a girl like me would even dare to do drug with them and thats when the insecure little girl inside me forced me to put aside all rationality and I just went for it. Since that day I have been battling addiction, depression and anxiety. I have to spend the rest of my life popping pills for my withdrawal symptoms and depression and I have to work my ass off to get my self-esteem back on track all for a second of impulsivity. Till today, I would say that i regret no thinking of the consequences. I regret not thinking of myself or my family before jumping into the trap. More than anything, I want to go back to the day and get the last 6 years of my life back...
I am going out of my mind trying to find anyone interested in keeping me in a strong, rubber-lined bag, for long periods of time. Age, gender, appearance, unimportant - they need only to be dominant, sadistic, cruel, merciless, and preferably very horny! There is a small zippered opening at my mouth, for fellatio, and another one lower down where my goodies can be pulled outside and snugged round the roots. Willing and able to give virtually unlimited fellatio, and open to cbt, milking, orgasm denial or delay, rape, you name it! Group, couple, single, TV, Cross-dresser, whatever. The longest I have been confined so far is a 3-day weekend, but I think my limits are probably higher than that, with the right person(s) You would think SOMEONE would realize the possibilities/opportunities in a situation like this, but so far no takers! Help!!
i have had problems with adult material since a young age. i want to quit. i feel better knowing that i have shown my secrets. i will do better. every time i open an adult site, i will remember this, and how terrible i am, and i will close the site. i refuse to let adult material hold me down, and constrain me. i am stronger than this, i am better than this. farewell, and thank you. every bit of love and help counts.
First off I believe if you confess your sins God is faithful and just to forgive your sins and cleanse you from all unrighteousness. Here goes. I am a slider. Been one side I was five. If you don't know what that is it's basically having sex with a bed or the sheets or floor. I so want this to be over I've never confessed it to anyone. Unfortunately that's only one of my many sins. Stories for another time. Thank you for listening.
Im 14 years old, and im addicted to watching porn. Im a virgin, but i love to fantasize a big cock dominating me. I also get very horny when i watch lesbian porn. I am a Catholic and i know this is a sin, but i cannot stop. I also have touched boys. :(
I confess- my ex fuck-buddy turned me into his little slut and I both hate and love him for it. Before I met him, I never would have dreamed of doing what he made me do, and now I find myself craving to be treated like a little slut again.
It started about 5 or 6 years ago. We were, as I said, fuck buddies. At first he would ask me to send him pics, something I never thought I'd do, but there's something about him I just couldn't say no to. He'd get me to dress up in little outfits. I started out coyly, not giving away too much. After a while, I was sending him full on pussy shots, pics of me masturbating and doing what he told me. One day he shared his fantasy that he wanted to use me as his slave- his little fuck toy to do with as he pleased. I was unsure at first, but found myself beginning to fantasize about it, so I agreed. I met him at his apartment and brought everything he told me to- outfits, sex toys, etc. Looking back I had no idea what I'd gotten myself into. I dressed up for him and it wasn't long before he was throwing me around- it was rougher than I expected. He tied my hands behind my back and pulled my hair and made me get on my knees. He forced his huge cock down my throat and instructed me to deep throat him, then lick and play with his balls. He slapped his cock across my face, then I'd choke on him some more. Next, he forced me to my feet and made me ride his cock as he pulled my hair and slapped my face. He spit in my mouth and told me to tell him I was his little slut. I could barely speak, I think I was in shock at how rough it was. He then lay me on my side and fucked me from behind while choking me and calling me his little slut and good girl. Afterwards I went home as I couldn't stay at his place- and I was unbelievably turned on by what had just happened. At first, I wasn't sure how to feel, but I was dripping wet by the time I got home and needed to touch myself. It was awful- but I loved it! He awoke something inside me. It was shameful and I didn't want to like it, but I did. It went on for a few more years after that. He knew I couldn't say no to him, he truly owned me and made me his whore, as much as I tried to deny it, he did. Another night, he blinded folded me and bound my hands and feet. He then hovered over me with his cock in my face and repeatedly rubbed it and slapped it over my face. He'd then make me suck him, then slide forward and make me tongue his arsehole, then lick and suck his balls. It was so degrading, I had no power but it had me dripping wet! I still fantasise about how much I loved it- even now it has me wet, I want it again, even though I hate to admit it. Over the years he got me to do anal, DP (with him and a dildo) sex in public, covered my face in his cum, made me swallow, I even sucked off some of his friends once while they all talked about me like I wasn't there- it was so hot! I hated that I loved it but I loved that I hated it. I think I must like being degraded
It's been a year since we have done anything. He got engaged and had a child with his on again off again girlfriend. He wanted to still keep me as his toy on the side, but I had to say no once and for all, as that goes too far against morals. If he wasn't with her, I fear I would probably still be at his mercy, wanting to stop but not being able to. It's like an addiction. He has text me in the past while with her to say he misses what we had and that he knows I loved it- I denyed it and said I never liked it. But the truth is, I miss it and I just want to feel owned again. I once wrote his name on my body in lipstick and other degrading things and sent him pics. I liked it. I wish it didn't turn me on so much, but I can't help it. I love being a good little slut and being called a good girl. I love being used and controlled. I secretly hope I will meet a man that will turn me into his whore once again, who won't give up and isn't afraid to tell me how he wants me. No man I've met since has gotten to know just how slutty I can be. I've tried not to want it, but the longer I go without it, the more I realise it's not just a want, it's a need. Like I said, I love it and I hate it....but I need it
#submission #slut #whore #control #addiction #naughty #dominant
I confess that I have a very bad habit. Everytime I think no one sees me, I eat my own booger. Usually, I am a cultivated young woman but I just can't stop doing it. It's kind of an addiction for me.
The problem is that I even do that when my boyfriend is around. I have to keep myself from laughing out loud when my boyfriend kisses me deeply after I ate a booger.
I do pain pills everyday.
Been doing it for years
never been to jail
never had it destroy my life
never lost a job over it
or a boyfriend
or a friend
I don't want to quit I don't want to get better>
I just wanna have a damn good time :)
I don't think there's anything wrong with that
I am throughly discuted with myself. I have a porn addition that involves very young girls. I fantasize about having sex with them and masturbate. but when i get done if feel so much guilt and shame, that i get out a belt and beat myself with it! I give myself 40 lashes each time. this has helped in a mager way. I no longer am atracted to minors that i see on the street. when i see them on the street, i have nothing but love and compassion for them in my heart. And i wonder how anyone could ever hurt them sexually! I know that i could not! NOt ever!!! Yet when i am home alone i get horney and go looking for porn again. I am tired of this sycle! I have sought out help in the past by confessing my sins to a minister; but instead of helping me, he told everyone in the congregatiion about my lust. I had to move to a different city! Now I must say that I have never, not even one time, molested a child! Nor will I! I see kids as individual humans and not sex objects. I love them as if I were them! and if i were them, i would not want someone hurting me sexually. So I discipline myself and stay away from them!!
But this sin of lust has hindered my relationship with God. I desperatly want to be rid of this sexual desire. So I keep beating my self with a belt and doing what i can to resist the temptaiton to begin with. But you can rest assure yourself that i am not a threat to kids in society! I just have an evil desire that I must get rid of at all cost.
Please pray for me!!
When I was about 12 I think, I started to jack off. It was a great feeling too. I was scared when I was about to ejaculate. I didn't know what was happening to me. Besides that I did it more often and anywhere I could do it.
One day I was jacking off and my little sister barged in my room, I got scared and hid my cock under my blanket. She didnt see me doing anything. She was like 6 I think. I remember she came in and layed on my bed, on her stomach. She was wearing really tight yoga pant things. So her ass was popping out and I got really horny when I saw her ass. I started jacking off to her because she was watching tv in front of me. The bed was shaking and she said,"stop shaking the bed" and I said that I was just cold. I didnt finish because my brothers also came in.
Another time we were in my parents room looking for something. She bent over a table thing and I was getting horny so I started humping the air pretending I was having sex with her. I did that for like 2 mintuites because we couldn't find it. My older sister of 2 years walk upstairs to my parents room and it scared me so I stopped before she seen anything.
When my little sister was sleeping, I took a look at her from my bed and started masturbating over her. I started to softly touch her ass. Soft enough she couldn't feel but I felt it good. I kissed her ass and cummed on her ass. I felt good about and scared because it was my sister.
Like 2 years later my little sister left the state because problems with our parents. I only had my older sister to look at. I started noticing my sister more and saw she grow a lot. She has bigger tits and a bigger ass. I got my first phone and started talking her social media looking for pictures of her ass hopefully. I found a lot and started masturbating to them. When my sister fell asleep early and everyone was outside I snuck into her room and started to masturbate in her face. I tried to feel her tits but she was facing down. If she was facing down that means her ass was facing up. I started feeling her ass and getting hornier. I cummed on her blanket where her ass was.
The second time touching her ass was at my aunt's house. And she was sleeping again. She has booty shorts on and no blanket. I fucked up while grabbing her ass. I grabbed her ass but my fingers went to far in and I grabbed hard. To this day I don't know if she was awake or not. Because when I did it she jumped a little. Then I went upstairs and started to jack off to the feeling of the ass grab.
Couples years to by, I ocassionaly grabbed her ass when I could. She started growing bigger tits and a huge ass. I constantly starred at her ass always. I'm pretty sure she knew I was doing it. She got so sexy. I'm 16 now and for 4 years I've been jacking off to my sister, taking bras and panties from her drawers when she was at school and I was "sick". I grabbed her ass more. I made a fake facebook account just to get nudes from girls. My sister popped up as a recommended friend and I started fucking with her. Saying stuff like, nice ass, you got big tits, I want to fuck you. I want to stick my dick in your throat. I loved it until she showed my dad the messages between the fake account and her. They were sexual harrasment messenges. He threatened to file a police report so instantly said sorry and begged not to. I still do stalk my sisters social media to see her half naked. I love looking at her tits and ass. I stalk her by looking through a hole in her door by the handle because the handle is smaller than the hole. She just got out the shower and I started watching her to see if she would get naked. I did it for a long time but she only looked at herself in a mirror. I didn't get to see tits or ass. To this day I still want my cock in her ass and throat. Sems weird right.
I confess, I've got an addiction.
I eat pineapples so damn much now after we met, sir testicles shooting sperm into my mouth.
Yep, you guessed it. I have an addiction to overdosing on pineapples and eating my cum.
Hi Well I have never confessed this before and think it's an addiction, Ever since I was 14 I have been been drinking my pee, it's started when I used to masterbate and I used to taste myself on my fingers and the sweetness used to turn me on and make my orgasms much harder, so it was a natural progresion for me to taste my pee after I rubbed my pussy straight after going to the bathroom one day and the taste was amazing and got me off so fast I was instantly hooked, I have been doing this for over 10 years now and am considering telling my Boyfriend but don't know how to approach the matter, we don't live together but after we have sex I sometimes can't wait for him to go or for me to get home deppending on where we are at the time his place or mine, and as soon as I get alone time I wait untill I have a full bladder untill I am almost about to burst then I strip off and piss straight into my biggest cup that I keep just for this purpose then I sit down and masterbate while drinking it all down and when I'm almost finnished I allow my throbbing wet pussy to cum as I hold the last mouthfull of pee in my mouth before swallowing and when I cum it truely is the most intence orgasms I have but it's getting worrying because I have been doing this even more and more and look forward to it and some how can't get off otherwise, I am afraid if I tell him this habit I have formed that he may not like it or worse still may not want me, but I still can't help wanting to tell him and to share this with him so he could be a part of it, I wish I didn't have this but I just can't stop once I get it into my head what I am going to do, it makes me so wet just knowing that I am going to make myself drink a cup of my sweet piss and cum while doing so, turns me on so much I can't stop. The orgasms I experience is amazing and mind blowing so much that I find it an addiction.
I'm currently 14 years old and I have a major addiction with masturbation. I got into porn when I was younger, I guess around 8, when I accidentally hit a link on my uncle's computer. It led me to a porn website, and I got very curious about it so once I got back home I typed the name of it. I clicked the first video I saw on there and watched. Suddenly, my little cunt started feeling weird, and I felt hot and dizzy. It was weird seeing a girl fuck another girl with a didlo. Eventually, I got caught. But around age 12 I would revisit the site and start masturbating. It felt so good to rub my fingers against my clit, and the climax was amazing. My addiction carried on to this very day, because it just feels so good. I really want to have someone's hot tongue licking my sweet little pussy, and have it enter me while someone's hands squeezes my boobs and rubs my nipples. I fantisize different sex sceneros, like sucking my dads cock, or licking my friend's pussy. I just can't help it, I'm super horny all the time I can't even go a week without masturbating. I don't finger myself because I still think it feels weird, so I usually just rub my little clit. Sometimes I let my little dog lick my pussy, and try to imagine someone else's tongue around me. I just wanna get fucked hard real soon cuz I'm super super horny.
#sex #14 #horny #masturbation #addiction #beastiality
I'm a 21 year old gay male. Decent looking.
Anyway this starts all the way back in elementary school, I always felt different. I was the odd kid out and often picked on but if you were to look at me there would be no obvious reason. I was clean, looked normal but I was always off, this is when the horrible pattern started. I had met this kid, let's call him Cody, anyway we hit it off at first when school started because he was the new kid and I was a loner and we bonded over just running around at recess because neither of us liked sports (or ever were invited to play) and the swing set. As the year went on I thought everything was fine and normal, his mom even started volunteering at the school to serve snacks for the students which had given me a chance to meet his mom which I thought was great until i got pulled into the office one day. I was told that I was being suspended for harassing another student, it turns out Jake was deeply afraid of me and my vivid imagination, so afraid that he had pretended to be my friend so he wouldn't get hurt. His mom volunteered at the school to even keep an eye on me so she can see for herself what was going on. That's when I really knew something was wrong with me and what sickens me is that this exact same pattern of me finding one person and developing a dangerous fixation on them, my intent is never to harm them but I do... never physically but I'm so insecure in everything about myself. I need to pick a fight with them just to know that they care enough to argue back. I make up a sad story or suicide attempt to see how much they love me. I constantly push these boundaries to test how much they will take and if they will hurl me out of their lives too. This pattern has slowed down but not in a healthy way, ive now turned to opiates to give me that feeling of euphoria I would get when someone would say something nice to me or give me a hug. I'm up to about 160-200 mg of oxycodone use a day which I guess is enough to kill someone without a tollerance and everyday I wish I wouldn't wake up from my nod. When this isn't enough I turn to casual sex on grindr just so I can still feel sexy and desired, I never use condoms because I hope I get HIV, that'll kill me in a few years if I don't treat it hopefully. Oh I should also mention that the only person that ever loved me unconditionally no matter how bad I got died of cancer when I was 19, the same time my "fiancé" left me. He was actually pretty good at dealing with my crazy, he knew how to work around it but after losing my mom I got really bad. Wanna know what's funny? I have a high paying job! I'm really smart and manipulative so I was able to cheat a resume and land a 30$ an hour job, I just pretended I knew what was going on lol I've even bought a car recently. I have this random peaks of energy and sanity I think where I set a goal and then I work hard to acheieve it, all while hiding a drug addiction. This isn't easy to do but any addict can tell you that they'll figure something out to push them through the day. As you can see this is so haphazardly written because this is how my brain works, I'm never on a single path and do you want to know the sickest thing that torments me the most in my life? I love. I love so hard. I love everyone and everything. All I want to do is love each and every person on this earth and i know that I have enough compassion in my heart to go around to each one of you but with my deadly desire to be desired like that in return all I do is hurt anyone who crosses my path. I've stopped now. I even got on methadone to start saving up a chunk of money for my family and entered the methadone clinic who dose me every morning before work, then I go to my office, milk the fuck out of the clock, go home, pop some xanax or whatever drug I can get my hands on because I have stockpiled fake pee for the UA's and pass the fuck out. On my days off it's just a blur of some type of intoxication. The beauty of this is, I'm no longer harming anyone, I tell my family I'm just dedicated to my career and they believe me because they see the new diesel (used 2011) Ford Dually I bought. I'm not in emotional pain for the lack of not having human interactions. My account is growing slowly but since I don't pay rent I can put almost half my monthly income into savings. I've written a list of the names of all the people I've hurt and for each name is a letter telling them everything that's beautiful about them. In 6 more months (if my body can hold up to my downers at night and daytime stimulants) I'll leave on a positive note with my dads debt paid off and my brother a newer truck which he should be able to make the payments on with the way I got the loan set up. Fuck you guys I'm so sorry I've failed you all. I was supposed to be the one to take every tear and change it for you... there has never been a time when my compassion didn't bring joy to someone's face, in fact that's the only thing that's kept me here this long. Kill me if you want and can find out who posted this, it would help. Today is January 7th.. late July and the toxic creature that has infected our existence as a species will enter the void of nothingness. Damnit, I was supposed to be something so beneficial. Anyway, bye babes. You have my love - mine is not to reason why, yours is not to make reply for I am to do and die.
#insanity #death #suicide #fear #addiction #abandonment #loss
I got so addicted to masturbation that I have missed many important things during my high school
I am addicted to porn... most times all I want is to be fucked... sometimes I fantasize about being raped by a dirty stranger repeatedly.
Today was one of the worst days in my whole life.
My dad left, my mom had a collapse. And I hate him so much right now, because he left us in this misery.
I hate him so much that I actually thought about killing him. Or at least, I want to beat the shit out of him.
Some days ago, I learned that my dad is a gambling addict, he played a lot of poker and made bets. He's a loser, he lost almost everything. We are higly in debts right now. Before he left, he took the last 500 dollars I had. That was for my car, took over 2 years to get so much money. Now it's all gone.
Actually, he wasn't that bad as a father. He worked hard (so I thought), cared about my mom, he even brought her flowers. Then we found out that he got fired 5 months ago...
Why would he do that? Why did he lie about it?
I hate him so much!!!
#hate #confessions #father #money
I do not want to get into much detail. I really need to be careful because I think that some people might recognize my confession if they stumble upon it. So, to keep things short... I stole my best friend's car and sold it for meth. I stole my mother's wedding ring to get more drugs.I used my little brother to steal things from a store so I could sell it.Those are just some of the things I did to get high. I am now 5 days clean and sober and I regret terrible what I've done. I am going through hell right now and I deserve it.
#addiction #addict #drugs #meth #alcohol #stealing #confession #hell #torture
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