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I know i should be happy if people around me find their success,but i can't help it i'm jealous.They seems know what they do unlike me.I'm lost i don't know what to do.I'm such a waste and failure.
I am a bartender at one of the nicer bars in town. One of my regulars is a guy I've known since high school. He's 2 years older than me and his brother is 2 years younger than me so I've known him for a long time. Over the past couple years, we've struck up a nice friendship while he's spent lots of time and money in the bar. I watched last year as he went through his divorce and even gave him a ride home once or twice when we couldn't let him drive himself. I began to catch feelings for him as he's everything I want in a guy. He's smart, tall, wealthy (very), successful, confident and he's really kind. As he recovered from his divorce, he became even more attractive to me and I thought he was noticing me differently too. I became a little more forward, more direct with my flirting and even went as far as to tell him to stay until close one night so we could have a drink together. He did and by the end of that night, I was practically in love.
After that night, I thought we were set. Then, two days later, when he came back in, he sat down and made sure to save the seat next to him. I said, "are you meeting someone here?" He said, "Yeah, actually, you might know her. Do you remember Maria?" I said, "Yeah, I thought she lived in the city?" He said, "She does, she's in town for the rest of the week so she reached out and told me to meet her for a drink." I guess I was kind of cold towards them because the next day he came in and asked if everything was alright. He said I "seemed off" the night before. I wanted to slap him but I knew I'd never have any chance with him ever again. I apologized and have tried staying positive.
It's so tough. I want to tell him how I feel but I'm worried he doesn't feel the same way and will stop coming in as a result.
The boy I've fallen in love with is like, the school heartthrob. We are best friends, and I live being around him, he's hilarious. Well, sone of his other best friends are MY best friends too. They're all beautiful with perfect bodies and faces, and he has dated every single one of them. Whenever he goes out with someone new I get BEYOND jealous. But the awesome friendship we have is more than I could ever ask for.
I'll admit it: I'm human and I get so envious of others and how much is going on in their lives and I hate myself for it. I hate that I even have these feelings in the first place because my life is my own and I have made the choices I have made that have led me to today. No one else made them for me and for the most part, my life really isn't that bad. I don't need to have the biggest and the best house, job, car, etc... I've got somewhere to live, a nice enough car, a cat, plenty of wine and a decent job. What more should I want for besides someone to share my life with and maybe some actual friends? I'm working on it!
In the end it just feels like it's not enough when my sister comes over and I get so angry at myself because normally I like my life and who I am and it's not her fault that she makes me feel jealous and stupid. I should be the bigger person and just let this go but she seems to be a like a storm: something that just comes along with all it's thunder and lightning and their's nothing you can do to halt it's approach. It's a cycle and by the time she leaves or I leave every time we get together, I almost feel like I'm in physical pain from the press of holding my emotions in check. I always end up balling like a pathetic idiot just to release some of the tension. Often I have trouble breathing. It's almost like a panic attack is induced or something and I just don't get it.
To give you some background, my sister is two years younger than me and 20 kilos lighter. I'd probably say I am the prettier of the two of us even if I am overweight although she has a nicer smile and definitely knows how to dress. We grew up in a small town and I was the only farm girl in my year group with the other 9 girls being town girls. It was just two different worlds. I grew up liking the outdoors and using my imagination but the townies liked sitting around and gossiping about boys and clothes, etc. My sister on the other hand, had four other girls her age who grew up on farms and they all became fast friends. I went through school going from friend to friend and as a result, my social skills are somewhat lacking. Don't worry, that's not the case so much these days but I just don't get people like she does and despite trying to be a laid back person, I just seem to be so sensitive. I can't handle it when people let me down or don't live up to my expectations. It also doesn't help that we have so many of the same interests. We worked for similar companies, we both like reading, writing, art, cooking and sewing. I feel like I can never be an individual and I am too embarrassed to show any of my artwork to my family who scorned the fact that I like(d) manga & anime when I was younger and still do. I am the black sheep of the family and if my own parents and siblings judge me for my tastes so much then other people outside the family certainly will. However she likes country music which is still in the 'safe' category. She gets teased for being into it but she doesn't get scorned whereas a lot of people in Western society see an anime episode and just see it as a cartoon when many animes can be very violent and for adults only. I don't like them for being cartoons alright. I like then because I like entertainment. I'll watch/read almost anything but I particularly like anime because it is not as constrained as Western stories/cartoons. It mixes my two favourite mediums together after all: stories and art. But no, apparently I am childish and immature when I'd probably say I am MORE mature simply because I have broadened my horizons and I am interested in all sorts of areas.
Moving along: she met her future husband when she was 19 and that was it. She's married a lovely man in a beautiful ceremony and now she's six weeks out from having her first child. Her life isn't perfect by any means but she couldn't have asked for a more wonderful start. She lives in a brand new, enormous house on a massive farm. She's rich and she has horses, dogs, a cat, a big garden and an amazing car and she's only 25. There's no doubt about it: she knows what she wants in life and she gets it. Not only that, she's really pretty and can flirt like there's no tomorrow. She is a great conversationalist and always the centre of attention. She's confident and self assured. Guys are always hitting on her. She even told me that a workman from a neighbouring farm hit on her last week and she's married and 7 1/2 months pregnant!!! What the heck?!
It's no wonder I feel fat, frumpy and tongue tied when she's around. Our conversation largely consists of her and her life and her calling me a dag because apparently I have an odd sense of humour. So what if I'm quirky? So what if I haven't had a boyfriend (and god knows if I ever will since my flirting skills suck so much - I'm shy alright! That doesn't mean I won't say yes if you ask me! Why should I have to ask? Not all girls have to be confident because surely not all guys find that sexy?) We talk about her all the time and how great her sex life is and how much of a pain it is to be pregnant. You know some of us are terrified that we're going to end up alone and never have any children of our own! And if I dare complain about it's the same old, "well you just need to be more confident and flirt. Nothing will come to you if you don't put yourself out there." Yeah well I don't want to simper and fawn! I want to meet someone who will talk with me and make me feel comfortable. I am shy and I don't want to be rushed into something and expected to have sex on the first date. I don't like touching someone as a form of flirting because frankly I'd be a little alarmed if some guy did that to me the first time we met and started talking. She never asks me what's going on in my life and she's constantly making me feel like an idiot because she always has such a tremendously strong opinion that you doubt yourself and start believing that maybe she is right.
I don't like her freakin friend okay! (Something we argue about more than anything else) And I am effin' entitled to my opinion! She's a horrible person who has upset all the other friends in their social circle and my sister still can't see it. This person didn't come to the hen's night and on the wedding night, after I had given my speech, she decided to upstage me by doing her own speech. She tried to make it look like she wasn't getting up on her soap box by making the other two bridemaids get up there with her - one of which was quite drunk and going through some horrible family issues and all three of them made terrible speeches. And then, my sister blames the drunk one and says how dare she do that on my sister's wedding night instead of caring about how much her friend is hurting. I mean, who does that? Yes, your wedding is a very special day and your friends should leave their problems at home but life happens and I can't believe she can be so on the side of one friend (who everyone else hates) and so mad at another who has been a far longer friend and had a lot of things going on in her life and was dragged into making a speech that she never should have had to make.
In the end it is so humiliating to be jealous of her and I am trying so hard to be me and improve in my own way and I should be grateful to have advice from her (or so everyone and my conscious keeps telling me) but you know what? I don't freakin' want any of it!!! I don't want these feelings and I just want to be me. I want to be able to see her and not have a complete meltdown. Is that too much to ask for? I want to have a few of my own wins in life and I want to freakin do it myself! I don't need advice from someone who's basically got lucky. Yeah I admit I thought and probably still think I am smarter and more widely read than her. I admit that I did better in school than her and thought that I was always better than her and I freakin hate that I even thought that in the first place because I never thought I was that type of person. I hate myself and I hate that I do that as well and that I am so freakin hard on myself. I just wish my chaotic thoughts would take a backseat for a change and leave me the alone because you know what? Life is meant to be enjoyed and not endured and right now I just can't figure out how to enjoy it at all. I don't want to feel like I am struggling because I want to feel like I am being challenged and I want to enjoy the journey instead of constantly feeling exhausted by my feelings.
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19 female: My best friend likes a guy. He likes us both. If he were to try to do anything with me i wouldnt let him only to stay friends with my best friend. I encouraged the relationship but the more i think about it the more i wish it was me and him.
I am so envious and jealous of my best friend. I do not know what to do. I sometimes feel like I am in love with her. Maybe I just do not want her to be happy. Does this make me a toxic person? How can I change this negative mindset? I feel kind of heartbroken when I think that she's happy or that she is enjoying her without me. But I do not think that I am in love with her? What is wrong with me? Can I not be happy for someone else's happiness?
#bff #lesbian #confession #love #jealous
I'm in love with my best friend, but she has a boyfriend and is in love with another boy. He keeps complaining that he will never have her because she has a boyfriend. I think it's unfair he gets to complain. They will eventually break up, but I can't change my gender or her sexual orientation.
#lesbian #jealous #scared #frustrated #love
There's a boy in my secondary school who is absolutely gorgeous, with green eyes and brown hair. I've been obsessed with him for over a year. I feel embarrassed to tell anyone, even my two best friends, because I'm a black female with short hair and a wide nose, and I'm quite chubby, so why would a boy like him go for a girl like me? Even worse, there is chemistry between him and my curvy Asian friend, who has long silky black hair and is gorgeous. No matter how much I try to beautify myself, I still look like a big ugly lump.
I'm obsessed with my boyfriend's ex-girlfriend. I hate her but I love to look at her and it's becoming a problem. It makes me jealous and insecure.
Sometimes I get jealous of my two bestfriends because they're both skinny and pretty
I have lusted through the act of masturbation, I have judged others, I have envied others, and I have wished bad upon other people.
My wife constantly makes reference to her sister's comments that her husband has an extremely large penis. She mentions it at least several times a week. It seems my wife is always extra pleasant around the guy all the time too and I think she wants to have sex with him.
I want to caution other males. I have never told other males about my secret training as I grew up. But this is a confession site.
There are those who think it would be cool to be able to live off the land. To be able to sneak up & kill any animal. Be a Ranger. All that.
It’s not cool. It’s survival. Some of us are genetically pre disposed to be greater warriors than the rest of you. If we are trained the rest of you stand no chance. It’s like watching sprinters. You could run in the yard your entire life; but without the DNA you’ll never outrun some of them. Well that’s the way it is with people like me. I have the DNA for combat. Throw in an entire lifetime of training & you get me.
Big deal. I discovered I’d rather be educated in a classroom. So at one point I taught Physics. Modern civilization beats the crap out of eating bugs.
Leave that to those who enjoy it. I can scale a cliff with my finger tips. I’d rather watch football on the big screen
My girlfriend is involved in a sexual relationship with her really fit coworker. I convinced her to play and she started, under the condition that she is allowed to develop slight feelings for the person. She has now been seeing this guy for several months and they go on weekend long vacations together. Sometimes we won't have sex for a month while she's seeing him almost every other day. Originally it was a turn on, now i don't know if I can live like this.
So I'm dating a girl, but I like like three other girls. I would like to leave her to date one of them... Except I'm too much of a jealous person so I won't leave her and have another guy have sex with her. I'm thinking about cheating. I'm sorry
I've made an online friend;
She's 2 years younger than me, she's not legal yet. I'm 18 and she's 16. (Shes straight)
About a year ago, we started fighting, she doesn't know why. But I do.
I'm jealous of her boyfriends, her friends, her family.
I love her, I've started loving her ever since I was 15. I keep fighting with her because I cant keep hiding my jealousy.
I'm drowning in my sins.
I'm lesbian, my family is christians. They said they'd disown me if I was gay.
I cry everynight.
Why cant I hold you?
Why cant I love you?
Why cant I just confess
All my stress would rest,
I love you. I'd die for you.
#unforgiveable #love #undying #depression #online #gay #lesbian #secret #family #jealous #jealousy
I confess I am very jealous! With that I destroy every relationship of mine...
It started at the first date with my first boyfriend: I already checked his phone on our FIRST date while he was in the restroom, I searched his room, found his passwords and checked his accounts on a daily basis.
But of course all was unveiled some afternoon as he caught me while I was looking through his phone. But even as he found out how jealous I am, he stayed with me.
Even my next boyfriend stayed with me after he found out what a control freak I am.
I don't know why but I guess because I think of myself as something better...
I am a terrible person and I beg for redemption.
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My wife convinced me for us too have a 3 some with my good friend Alan I ageed too it we've been doing for months now but it's gotten out of hand at first we would all fuck together now my wife and friend are only fucking and I'm not included any more they fuck behind my back with out me knowing and they fuck with passion one night I came home early from work and I snuck up on them and they were fucking in my bedroom but not just any sex they were doing doggy style 69 my wife rode him she sucked his balls and dick he sucked her tits she moaned his name with passion even came on her butt I was jealousy but horny so i didn't interrupt I masterbated untill they were done I was listening too my wife get fucked
I wish people would give me the attention I deserve, could really slit someone's throat about now... so jealous, ugh.
There is this woman I know around in my town in Australia who is a a real geeky sort (like me), and who is a bit weird and aspie (unfortunately, also like me) - turns out, she is transgender.
I was born a guy BTW, and aside from this woman who basically used me for money and another who just, well, she was a fucking nutter herself (more than me, which is rare), I'm so insanely jealous of this transwoman that, to the point, I want to do the transition myself. Gamer girls get a lot more sex (from both men and women) than gamer guys, and I can tell you, I would just love the attention. Hell, I plan to work in porn if I have to. There are some sick bastards out there and I would just love to be the centre of attention, but in a way that, to me, is beautiful. (I know other people won't agree but I don't care).
Though I'll still be the same geeky person I always have been. Heck, wonder if I am in fact transgendered and my encounter with this person just triggered those feelings within me, or - hell if I know. Still, I do like the idea of being a transgender female, though I can't imagine the discrimination and loss of "male privilege" as the SJW crowd call it being too much fun. I just want to get rid of my disgusting male self but I really don't want to do myself in if I can help it. Maybe becoming a woman would help me restart my life. Yeah, I'm basically a whore in my mentality. So what? No-one has any right to judge me.
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